161. Thatís the number my scale gave me this morning. 161 lbs. I havenít seen that number in over two years.
In spring 2010, I reached 143 lbs. My original goal from spring 2009 was to reach 150 from a starting weight of 182. Since 2010, between stress and unanticipated health problems (ending an engagement but staying with my ex another year, ending that relationship in June 2011, starting a new job and moving, suffering chronic tension headaches for six months and unable to ST or runÖ), my weight creeped up to around 155 lbs by the beginning of this year. Since then, while I lost a few lbs every now and then, Iíve gained to the point that I now see 161 lbs on the scale.
18 lbs up from the best shape of my life.
I never meant to see that weight again.
I met an amazing guy. We started spending A LOT of time together Ė weíre apart maybe 1-2 nights a week. Iím still exercising quite a bit, but my eating? WOAH. Weíre out for dinner 2-3 times a week. Because Iím not home making dinner, I donít have a lunch to bring in the next morning, and Iím therefore buying lunch.
This job involves a lot of travel. Far more than the ďlimitedĒ that was described in the profile. Iím traveling in 3-5 day blocks every four weeks or soÖoften with a set menu that isnít healthy, and no access to (or time to access) fitness facilities.
This job is more time intensive than the last, and Iím pretty wiped when I get home. Poor excuse, and Iím generally not letting it get in the way of my exercise, but it does mean that I donít have the motivation I used to for cooking a nice healthy dinnerÖ.or sometimes even buying groceries. I tried to restart meal planning, but when I randomly end up meeting the man for dinner one night, Iím thrown off my plan, and I lose motivation to stick to it.
Iím not working out on weekends anymore. I can spend an entire weekend just enjoying life with the man, and I donít want to leave him to go to the gym. Iíd rather curl up on the couch and watch another episode of The Wire with himÖand then, of course, pick up dinner.
Iím playing softball again. Great for socializing, and Iím playing my best season yet, but we go out after every game for drinks and ďteam foodĒ Ė nachos, fries, sweet potato friesÖ.all that fried goodness that shouldnít be enjoyed every. single. week. I have not managed to lose weight any summer I play softball. Normally I see a gain during this time, especially since softball replaces zumba (and this year boxing, too, since I was doubling up on Mondays), which is a more intense workout for me (and doesnít get followed with pub food and long island iced teas!).
Iíve slipped up and started drinking a LOT of soda. Diet soda, but a bad habit, still. Iíve also had an appetite increase, and while Iím still practicing some good habits, like drinking 8-16 glasses of water each day and having a smoothie for breakfast some mornings, and Iíve added habits like eating healthy snacksÖinstead of letting those habits replace bad habits, Iím adding bad habits to them. So where before Iíd have a smoothie for breakfast, plus lunch and dinner, now Iím often having a smoothie plus a bagel (sometimes), a morning snack of fruit, the same sized lunch (or bigger) as always, a snack in the afternoon, and the same sized dinner as always, plus a post-workout snack.
No wonder Iíve gained weight.
I can beat myself up and self-soothe with food, or I can fix it.
ÖI choose option B.
This weekend Iím on my own during the day. The manís got a major paper due on Tuesday that heís got to work on. Iím going to use that time wisely.
Iím going to get a workout in both days. Both will involve strength training and cardio.
Iím going to meal plan for next week. Lunches like big spinach salads that donít require leftovers. Dinners with fresh veggies that Iíll buy at the farmerís market on Saturday, and meat. I havenít cooked meat in foreverÖWTF?
Iím going to buy lots of lemons and cucumber, and throw those in my water every single day. Iím going to stop buying soda.
Iím going to take before picturesÖ.something I didnít think Iíd need to do again.
Goal #1: reach 150 lbs by September 30.
With Italy at the end of August, that means I can slip up on holidays and still recover by goal time.
Goal #2: reach 145 lbs by December 31.
Iím good with 145. 140 was hard to maintain, not going to lieÖand I still want to be able to enjoy myself on occasion (occasion being the KEY WORD, Mags.).
Enough promising myself Iíll change my habits when thereís no temptation around, and then forgetting my promises as soon as temptation shows up.
Enough buying lunches (and breakfasts) because I havenít done groceries or got leftovers.
Enough convenience foods.
Time for action.