Wednesday, July 11, 2012
I can't help but feel old as dirt. I'm going to lap my brother in age this August. I can't believe its been so long since his death. Still feels like I seen him just the other day. He's gone, mom's gone, Margo, Joe, and Eric all gone. I want someone who will listen to me. My husband wants me to believe he drives and hour to just talk to his girlfriend. Right and I eat chocolate for the health of it. He wont talk to me about anything just yells and makes me feel like a bigger pile of crap. I'm so tired of this. I have no one. Just the kids. Mom i need you more then ever and you're not here. I'm so frustrated. I did so good last week and the weight didn't budge, been pigging out this week and it goes up. I guess I am just a fat piece of nothing.