100,000-149,999 SparkPoints 111,621

Thank You, Sir, May I Have Another?

Wednesday, July 11, 2012

So... my daughter called me last night and says she wants to come home. She may be 3 months pregnant (not sure since she has fabricated pregnancies numerous times in the past). She was crying and said she was tired of being with people who used her and didn't love her. She wants her mother. Of course, I consoled her and told her she can come home, gently reminding her that there will be rules. I truly do hope that she is fed up with her lifestyle and wants to change and move forward. I will, however, believe it when I see it. So my guard will remain up, even while my heart continues to love her. I already have so much on my plate, but what's a mother to do? I'll tell you - set a LOT of boundaries. A LOT. And get some good anxiety meds... :)

Brother had a bad panic attack at 4 in the morning, too. Bless his little heart. It breaks my heart when he cries.

Last night I had dinner with a friend. He ordered a Bananas Foster and I ate a few bites. First dessert I've had since I can't even remember. The first bite was quite delicious - but I'm just not a sweet eater. There were mashed potatoes on my plate. Now THAT'S what I would have wanted to eat. But I didn't. Not worth it. Went home and did Wii Fitness - hula hooping, timed runs, then I did a free run for 20 minutes. ME - RUNNING. When I was done (and I DIDN'T STOP, although I kept thinking, "You're probably going to give out soon, do you seriously think you can run for 20 minutes straight?") I had gone 2.88 miles. HOLY HELL YEAH, BATMAN! Me! Rose! Ran for 20 minutes straight without stopping and almost did 3 miles!! I know that jogging in place with a Wii is not the same as running outside, but I just still cannot believe how strong and capable I'm becoming. Feels damn good. Got all my meds now, too, so I can get those 4 pounds drained back off.

Yep- gonna' be the hottest (and healthiest) 50 year old on the planet. Just accept it, world.

Share This Post With Others
Member Comments About This Blog Post
    Awesome job on the running! emoticon
    2053 days ago
    emoticon emoticon
    2053 days ago
  • JAT1001
    Great Job Rose! I am cautiously excited for you and your daughter. I hope she has finally realized that home IS where the heart is and that only a mother can lover her in that special way that she needs! You are a strong woman and yes, boundaries ARE a must!

    Congrats on skipping the potatoes. I have just started to ask that they not be delivered to the table. OR request another veggie instead!

    AND you RAN 2.88 miles... YOU ROCK! I too would be jumping for joy if I could do that! Keep up the good work! HUGS! emoticon emoticon emoticon
    2054 days ago
    Kids. All you can do is set the rules (my house, my rules). If they can't abide, then they have to go. Sucks big time but I've seen a lot of parents go the route of being their kid's friend and that ends up so much worse. Best of luck to you.
    2054 days ago
    emoticon emoticon emoticon
    2054 days ago
    emoticon on the running!!!

    I totally get what you say about your daughter. got a son in a similar boat. Its all about boundaries and staying strong, but geeez that staying strong takes its toll sometimes. You are an awesome mother!! its great that she knows that she can turn to you and you will be there but that you also show her that you have rules because you respect yourself.

    2054 days ago
  • SLPORTER1978
    Way to go!
    2054 days ago
  • BARB5970
    Kids today seem to be like boomerangs, you send them out into the world, and they come right back, but like you said "what's a mother to do".

    You're doing great, keep it up!
    2054 days ago
    Woohoo!! Great job with the Wii. You are doing great.
    Best of luck with Tiffany. It will be hard but you're doing the right thing with boundaries and rules. It's necessary for your sake as well as her. I'll be praying for you. Hugs, Jackie
    2054 days ago
    Way to rock the Wii!

    Good luck with the situation with your daughter. I don't have children, so I can only imagine how hard it is to to find the 'tough love' balance when you child has lost her way.
    2054 days ago
    Way to go! I'm like you, I don't really have a sweet tooth. I crave carbs, so I know how hard it is to not eat the mashed potatoes!! You are doing so awesome! Good luck with your daughter coming back home. You are a strong woman in so many ways! Keep on keeping on! emoticon Xo
    2054 days ago
    That's BIG HELL YAH!!! WAy to go! I hope things work out with your daughter. *HUGS*
    2054 days ago
  • Add Your Comment to the Blog Post

    Log in to post a comment

    Disclaimer: Weight loss results will vary from person to person. No individual result should be seen as a typical result of following the SparkPeople program.

More Blogs by NARNIAROSE2003