Should I stay or should I go?
Wednesday, July 11, 2012
This has been a hard week for me emotionally. I went to work on Monday morning only to be served with a lay off. It really did not come as a surprise because based on the fact that there have been dozens let go in the past couple of weeks and based on the fact that the work that I have been doing as of late has been minimal.
So there I was talking to my sister on the phone telling her that I really wanted to be out enjoying the sun because I was completely bored with nothing to do, when one of my Managers asked me to come to his office. Not out of the norm because our offices are far from each other. So I make the walk to his office...when I arrived, there stood the HR Manager. Once I saw her I had already assumed my demise. It actually went pretty well because she is friend of mine as well and my Manager really is a great guy. He could tell that I knew why I was there, he was trying to remain professional and not get choked up. He then started to praise me up and down, telling me how much he loved me and that it had nothing to do with my work ethic. That he fought hard to keep me but that in the end I am just a number on a spreadsheet. I went on to tell him that it was ok, that it is what it is and that I will be fine.
Based on the industry that I work in it is common practice to lay people off and rehire according to work demands. In fact this has been my 2nd layoff with the company in 4 years, so it really truly did not come as a surprise. Sure it was hard and smarted a bit, but not really a surprise. Especially since he had already called me into his office a few weeks ago when the first bunch of people were let go...only then he told me I was safe. So suffice to say from then on, the threat was looming.
So here it is the 11th of July and my last day is supposed to be the 16th. I am completely without tasks or duties my Manager basically has told just to look busy even if it is my own personal stuff. But I am ready to exit now. Yet here I sit getting my paid to do nothing but sit and look pretty. So I'll take that but it is really tough to get up on such a glorious and beautiful warm and sunny day knowing that I could be out occupying my time with fun and fitness education. I am studying to be a Personal Trainer (2 exams left). Some would ask what I am complaining about..I'm getting paid right? Right and wrong. I am an overachiever, I thrive on being busy. So to just sit and pretend is hard in itself.
I am looking forward though to spending the summer with my kids (that will keep me busy enough). I have also decided not to even bother looking for work until the fall. You never know I could end up being called back. Like I said it is par for the course in this industry. The problem is I'm just not sure I can handle the instability any more.
So my issue is should I stay or should I go? Can I hang on til Monday?
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Hey just checking in, I too was laid off around the same time and as of present still looking for work but remainging optimistic. I do admit that I miss being "work busy" but this time off has allowed me to focus on "me" and getting fit although it's been a slow go. I feel better physically and I guess thats all that matters. Any way have you received your Training licenses, you weight loss is awesome I'm so inspired.
1464 days ago
Nate!! How did I miss this?! I'm so sorry about your lay off, but when one door closes, another one opens. I really think and hope this will be any final push you need to get your personal training career off the ground. So happy to see you made a decision that works best for you and your family. Enjoy this weather - we're actually having a decent summer for once! . We will all be here to support you if/when you need us!
1531 days ago
I decided to leave. Left on Thursday at lunch. I had my meeting with my friend HR Manager and she spoke to me frankly on and off the record. Pretty much told me the ultimately it was my decision. Speaking as my friend: if she were me she would have took those last few days as vacation and called it a day. Speaking as the HR Manager she would have given me the option of either staying or leaving. That she understands how hard it can be for one to wait out their demise. She then told me to go into my direct managers office. share my feelings with him and decide what would work best.
So I had finished the last of all my pending tasks, by 930 am, had my meeting with her at 10. Cleared out the rest of my stuff from my space(I never knew how much gym clothes I had there ) cleared personal and unnecessary things off of my computer. Freshened up walked that last long walk to his office. Shared my great news regarding my Sons track meet and then ended it with. "I have made the decision that today will be my last day." He proceeded to tell me that he was surprised that I lasted that long. He totally understood. gave me a hug and wished me well. That was that. I had a few more people I had to say goodbye to but other than that.. I was out of there by 11:30.
Do I regret my decision? Absolutely not.
I will take the summer off from office work to regroup, finish my training, have a blast with my family and continue my journey to The NEW ME!
Thanks for the comments and feedback. You all gave me some things to think about, which ultimately helped with my final decision.
1534 days ago
Comment edited on: 7/14/2012 7:56:24 AM
I hope your meeting went well. It is tuff though-I've been there too. If you can stay, I would try to use those remaining days to study too.
1534 days ago
I guess my personal thought is if you didn't go back on Monday, would you be considered for a rehire later? My work ethics tell me if I want to be rehired when needed,mi need to still prove to be professional during my last few days. Though I understand how frustrating it must be to not know when u are going to be let go again :( I say stick it out and enjoy the rest of the summer once you are done on the 16th - you will still have plenty of great days to be outside. :)
1536 days ago
Sorry about the layoff and the resulting boredom as you finish out these final days.
You are a tough cookie... look at what you can do fitness-wise!!!
You can do anything you set your mind to. You can get input, but it is your decision of course. I have been bored like that before. Time stands still... it is painful.
If it were me, I would stick it out. This too shall pass. I hope you come to the decision that suits you best.
1536 days ago
Wow that is a tough one...it's kind of hard to act busy when there is nothing to do..but I think I would hang in there until Monday..you know there is alot of exercises you can do while at your desk..even on your lunch break go outside and walk for a while..I know you will figure it out..God Bless!
1537 days ago
@BLUE42DOWN yes I have weighed all of my options. At this point sure the money is good but 3 days is not going to make or break me. I have discussed it with the hubby and he was no help. Pretty much told me he was fine with whatever decision I came up with because he knows that I am miserable sitting here and he also know that I don't want to just up and leave either. I have decided to have a chat with my HR Manager friend, off the record in the morning and get her advice. I know that she will be open and honest with me. If she implies that I will be a bad bad girl for leaving then I will stay. Other wise if no other reasons are addressed that would convince me to stay then I will leave.
Again I am trying to pass the time with studies but not having much luck because this is weighing on me so heavily. So I have been pretty much internet surfing, but even that can get boring.
So I guess I will pray and sleep on it one more night. Have my meeting and make my decision then.
1537 days ago
Comment edited on: 7/11/2012 7:53:10 PM
Ouch. I know what you mean about wanting to be busy and productive. When I was young and doing temp jobs, the worst situations were where I finished all the tasks they had planned for me (filing, for example) and had several hours to do nothing but stare at a phone hoping it would ring. I remember one place bringing me a box of what their assembly workers were putting together and spending the hours doing that. I was soooooo bored otherwise.
Would going mean giving up income that you need? Would leaving now alter how the layoff affects things like collecting unemployment? (I have no clue if Canada works like the U.S. for that.) If there really isn't a negative result from going, "go" for it.
Otherwise, I think I'd try to find something other than the normal study that I wanted to fill the time with - something productive for me that I'd normally put off because I didn't have time to do the research. For example, I could enter recipes in my meal planner software, work on characters and plot for a novel, research housing costs in areas I might like to live in 5-10 years, and so on.
1537 days ago
Thanks for the feedback, still undecided.
@Jo, I have already exhausted all of those options, asked yesterday and today...still nothing. I was not joking when I said that there is no work to be done. If you were here you would see that it is a ghost town. The only people that are pretty much left are the trades people and Management staff that have their own teams. Especially this time of year, where most people are on vacation...it is extremely quiet here. That's why my Manager said to look busy. He said he would ask around as well, although pretty hard for him to do that when he himself will be heading out for vacation this afternoon and will not be back until Monday afternoon.
So I continue to sit and study. But finding it hard to concentrate because it is not a good study environment.
Yes I do have enough hours for EI, I still had hours left from last year when I was off as well. I came back before it ran out.
Ohhh decisions, decisions.
1537 days ago
You said you're an over-achiever... why does that not surprise me? :-P
Stay or Go? My vote is Stay, with the following provision: Find someone else in the office who needs help, and help him/her. You know the type you're looking for, the kind who is frazzled and always rushing rushing rushing to the next meeting or activity or thing or whatever, and barely has time to plunk a buttcheek into an office chair to eat lunch.
That approach will serve a few purposes:
1) Keeps YOU busy till Monday, and not guilty.
2) Helps that co-worker out tremendously
3) Shows to management how much you are capable of doing, even when you know you're almost out the door (but based on the convo with Manager, he already knows, and it will only reinforce this work ethic).
Do you have enough weeks to get EI?
1537 days ago
Wow, sorry to hear about the layoff, but at the same time looks like it will be nice to spend some time with your kids :) Summer is the best time for it! I don't know what to tell you, I know it's tough "looking busy" when you really aren't, especially if you strive off being busy. I'd probably try to hang in there if possible, it just looks better if they asked you to stay. Good luck in whatever you decide to do :)
1537 days ago
I am not sure of what you should do. I can suggest you to pray and follow your heart.
Enjoy the summer with your kids (thats what I am doing) and then proceed from there.
1537 days ago
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