Wednesday, July 11, 2012
This has been a hard week for me emotionally. I went to work on Monday morning only to be served with a lay off. It really did not come as a surprise because based on the fact that there have been dozens let go in the past couple of weeks and based on the fact that the work that I have been doing as of late has been minimal.
So there I was talking to my sister on the phone telling her that I really wanted to be out enjoying the sun because I was completely bored with nothing to do, when one of my Managers asked me to come to his office. Not out of the norm because our offices are far from each other. So I make the walk to his office...when I arrived, there stood the HR Manager. Once I saw her I had already assumed my demise. It actually went pretty well because she is friend of mine as well and my Manager really is a great guy. He could tell that I knew why I was there, he was trying to remain professional and not get choked up. He then started to praise me up and down, telling me how much he loved me and that it had nothing to do with my work ethic. That he fought hard to keep me but that in the end I am just a number on a spreadsheet. I went on to tell him that it was ok, that it is what it is and that I will be fine.
Based on the industry that I work in it is common practice to lay people off and rehire according to work demands. In fact this has been my 2nd layoff with the company in 4 years, so it really truly did not come as a surprise. Sure it was hard and smarted a bit, but not really a surprise. Especially since he had already called me into his office a few weeks ago when the first bunch of people were let go...only then he told me I was safe. So suffice to say from then on, the threat was looming.
So here it is the 11th of July and my last day is supposed to be the 16th. I am completely without tasks or duties my Manager basically has told just to look busy even if it is my own personal stuff. But I am ready to exit now. Yet here I sit getting my paid to do nothing but sit and look pretty. So I'll take that but it is really tough to get up on such a glorious and beautiful warm and sunny day knowing that I could be out occupying my time with fun and fitness education. I am studying to be a Personal Trainer (2 exams left). Some would ask what I am complaining about..I'm getting paid right? Right and wrong. I am an overachiever, I thrive on being busy. So to just sit and pretend is hard in itself.
I am looking forward though to spending the summer with my kids (that will keep me busy enough). I have also decided not to even bother looking for work until the fall. You never know I could end up being called back. Like I said it is par for the course in this industry. The problem is I'm just not sure I can handle the instability any more.
So my issue is should I stay or should I go? Can I hang on til Monday?