Maybe I should change my name to Sisyphus?
Tuesday, July 10, 2012
I just finished reading Deborah's (Lunadragon's) blog about being in neutral, and I got thinking about how hard it is to keep trying to push myself up the hill of health.
Remember Sisyphus? He was the guy in Greek mythology who was sentenced to push a big rock up a hill for eternity. Every time he got to the top, the rock would roll back down, and he would have to start again. What a great metaphor for what I have done with my health all of my life!! I just start to get myself together and then something gives me an excuse to stop, and I roll right back down the hill, and that big stone lands right on top of me again.
Well, you know, maybe I am going to have to keep pushing that same damn big stone up that same mountain of temptation for the rest of my life, but I am going to keep pushing this time. Perhaps if I push long enough, that mountain will begin to erode, and flatten out a little.