Monday, July 09, 2012
I took a cat nap and feel better.. I dreamt about a time machine that could shoot lasers to protect me and I went back in time 26 million years and nearly flew into several dinosaurs who tried to eat me.. including a T-Rex. Yikes! Woke up before I figured out how to change it and get back to my own time.. or maybe I did, since I woke up here. haha..
I was going to walk on the beach, but then realized it was ALMOST high tide.. Then I was going to hoop, but my phone that I thought was fully charged was only half full and the charger still wasn't connected right. So I waited a bit.. I will hoop before dinner and then walk right after dinner when the tide is down a bit lower.
I posted a status last night saying I was disappointed that so few people commented on my weight loss transformation. The thing is, that when I visualized about my change, I often visualized being HERE and receiving compliments on my weight loss and healthier body. It was HERE last year that I started this transformation.. I mean, i started a few weeks before this event, but here we focused on Transformation as a theme of the worship services each day and we set visualizations of what our change would Look like, smell like, taste like, sound like, and feel like.. and I set them almost all HERE.. at least the sounds.. of the compliments.. I got one great enthusiastic one.. and one kinda sorta compliment.. But the two others I was closest to haven't said anything. One of them is quite heavy herself and maybe she is jealous.. She is also very quiet.. doesn't speak much. The other one is very lean and at her ideal weight and never struggled with weight. I specifically thought she would say something because she's one I shared with about this goal of weight loss.. Soo.. I don't know.. It just is kind of disillusioning.. Maybe it's because last year was my first year and people don't remember me as well.. Some people have been coming here for ten to fifteen years in a row for this event.
As for if I look different? Absolutely. I really definitely do. I have had people at home who have noticed, even those I see weekly.
Anyway, I feel smaller.. and that bath towel goes around me one and a half times now.. It used to not cover me around the hips area.. the super big bath towel didn't, I mean. Now it does. So yay..
Yay Progress! (yeah, even if no one seems to notice.)