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Monday, July 09, 2012

As I put my 7-month old down for his nap, I came in and saw a folder of pics from when he was first born. I started looking at him and I am amazed at how fast he's grown and how big he's gotten.

If I could have done the whole pregnancy over again, I would have watched more what I was eating, I would have done more exercise and I would have started both soon after he was born.

I sit with my body as it is post-pregnancy and I'm not super happy with it. But I am trying to change it. I tell myself that my body was the vessel that carried Austin into existence, and though it may take time, I can get it back to where it needs to be. A mother's sacrifice is a good one.

I kind of had a low spot yesterday because I uploaded all my exercise from my Polar heart rate monitor into the computer and was comparing it to the weight loss I've seen using SP. Now, I got my HRM 12/2008, and I've been on SP since like...2005 ish? Well, I started looking and comparing my activity and weight loss, and I realized that all I've ever been able to lose is maybe 1lb a week. I know this is normal and "good" and everything, but I was 30lbs away from being healthy before Austin, and then I gained 56lbs. I lost 25 within the first 3 months and then just stayed there. Since then I've lost 5. So I made the connection, that my rapid loss of the baby weight was over, and that it will literally take me a year of dedication to lose the 50 pounds I need to lose. And the irony in that, is that if we are to have Baby #2, we would try to conceive in about a year. So yeah. *Deep breath, turn it back positive again*

It's all about the journey and not the destination. If I suddenly woke up skinny, I wouldn't know how to manage/maintain it. So every calorie I burn, meal I track and even doughnut that sneaks into my mouth is all part of becoming healthy, and living life.
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    awwww but you can do it! The baby will keep you hopping thats for sure!
    2045 days ago
    You can do this!!!!
    We can!
    2078 days ago
    The number on the scale is just that...a number. What matters is the health behind the number! Your last paragraph says it all! emoticon
    2078 days ago
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