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Day 56-I Just Don't Give A Hoot Anymore!

Monday, July 09, 2012

That's right you heard me right I don't give a hoot anymore...about what people may or may not be thinking about me! I have spent so many years being way to conscious of what I think people are thinking when really they probably are not really thinking about me anyway. I mean I am not that important that I would register in a random strangers thoughts I am not Tom Cruise and Katie Holmes for gosh sakes. I must have believed for years that I was some big important movie star, scientist, or maybe an astronaut because I have avoided doing things, wearing things, and much more because I believed people were judging me, secretly laughing at me, or whispering about me. WOW was I cocky ! I will let you all in on a little secret that I have learned after 56 days NOBODY REALLY CARES WHAT YOU ARE DOING! WOW just that thought that realization is so freeing it is like lifting boulders off of my shoulders. I have really embraced the concept of not giving a hoot anymore and I have been enjoying my summer with my daughter Gracie. We have went swimming at the lake, the neighbors pool, and the city pool! Does anyone realize how good it feels to be swimming again?!? If anyone doesn't know the answer it feels AWESOME! I have also been wearing capri's with tennis shoes to work because really who wants to wear pants when it is 104 degrees out. I have also been wearing tank tops, shorts, and pretty much doing things that I have been to ashamed or embarrassed to do for so many years. I am not losing the pounds as quickly as I would hope and that is frustrating, but I am not letting my size bog me down anymore. Gosh Darnit I am on a journey and I am going to enjoy that journey in a tank top! Lets face it it may take me years to lose the weight and that sucks, but I am not going to wait years to do things like wear tank tops and swim nope I am going to do them now. Plus along the way I am going to like who I am and what I look like right now because that is important too. I like who I think I will be when I am skinny, but I need to like who I am when I am fat too because really the skinny girl won't be happy unless the fat girl gets happy!

On a side note I found my wedding ring, or actually my daughter did on the bottom of a laundry basket. Though the day she found my wedding ring I lost my cell phone with all 1,000 pictures of Gracie that I didn't have backed up :(

Have a Great Day Everyone And Remember to Not Give A Hoot Anymore!
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  • SKY2012
    2023 days ago

    Bravo! I am so happy for your epiphany!
    2024 days ago
    You have not given up on yourself. You now know you are the only one that can make it happen for you.

    You have the power to succeed or fail.

    You have chosen to succeed.

    Few baby steps complete a long journey

    Writing is progress!!!

    Janet- emoticon
    2024 days ago
    emoticon Life is for living and enjoying! When you are happy everything is easier! Keep the great attitude and tell Gracie to find your phone. She seems to have a knack.
    2024 days ago
  • BIGDOG1969
    Very well put! I like your attitude. emoticon
    2024 days ago
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