Sunday, July 08, 2012
The weekened is almost over and I had so much food. We had family visiting so basically we started eating when they arrived at lunch time yesterday until they left after lunch time today. And I am sure everyone knows that you don't put just freggies on the table when you have people eating at your place. So we started with potato salad, then some cake, bbq at night, a nice early breakfast brunch with scrambled eggs and then pork and broccoli for lunch today. Ugh, I was so full even though I paid attention to how much I was eating. I tracked EVERYTHING! I went over my calories yesterday and today, but it wasn't bad at all. Yesterday I went over by 5calories and today I went over by 47 calories. I am sure that I was probably between my calorie range yesterday though, because I didn't have the nutrition info for the cake so I chose the next closest thing but tracked twice the regular serving size. After all, I think I did pretty well this weekend. Eating was (well, at least I consider it) "almost" perfect and I found enough time to work out early in the mornings. I was even thinking about having a one day in a week when I won't track my food that accurately as I have been. First of all, I am below my calorie range almost every day- even though I try to eat more- and maybe it might be a easier with all the bbq or birthday parties you get invited to on weekends. I also think that I am now at a point where I am aware on how much I eat and it hasn't never been my biggest problem. My problem has always been emotional eating and I never do that with company. In fact, I usually eat less when I am around other people. It is a mind and confidence thing, I guess. I just feel like everyone will be judging me when I eat that much because of my weight and in a way it would be legit. You don't get fat from nothing and noone wants other people to say "hey, look at that fat girl and how much she is eating. No wonder she is that big".
Oh, things with the guy are going great. We talked for a few hours today and we don't seem to get bored. He keeps asking about meeting and maybe if I might make plans with him next weekend. Ugh, I so wished I had more confidence. Maybe I will get a huge confidence boost. I could need it because I do want to see him again. How nice it would be if I could do magic. Lol.