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Falling off the train

Sunday, July 08, 2012

I fell off the train.

I slowly stopped exercise because of life events (getting busy at work, getting shingles, getting lazy...) and then my cheat days turned into everyday.

Then... came all the guilt and shame.

I am publicly announcing that I started at 255 pounds, lost down to 220 pounds and I now today weigh 239 pounds.

I kept waiting on the right day to restart my program (the first of the month, the end of summer, when it stops being hot, etc.) but today I rose up recognizing the excuses and facing my fears.

Today is the day.

The only goal I am making is that I am going to weigh 135 pounds. I am taking it one day at a time and I am working everyday towards my goal. I can't go back to a size 20, uncomfortable, sleepless nights and diabetes episodes all the time. I just can't.

I ask for your prayers and support.

God bless you...

Moving forward...
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  • v JUSTMAXINE55
    You can do this! I so agree with the advice that OMMAMA7 gave you. Have daily goals so that each night you will have a sense of accomplishment. Smaller goals make the journey seem shorter.

    Right now, I weigh 236. My goal is to reach 230. After I get there, I'll set another 5 lb goal. So far, this has really worked for me.

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    1508 days ago
  • v OMMAMA7
    You've got this! You took a huge couple of steps right here. I just wrote in my blog the other day, I think it was the last one - check it out! - how there will always be life events, good and bad, and if we keep waiting until they're done to work on our health, it'll never happen. That's life. We just need to learn how to keep the focus on health while those things come up. I'm struggling with this a lot right now also - we can do this - I'm here with you! Try at least one thing at a time - 1 solid goal even if you have other goals also, like 1 thing you absolutely have to do each day or week, even if some of the other goals slip. Like to start you could have a goal of eating right, a goal or working out, but also have a goal that if nothing else you will get your water in, or you will log on here every day. And once that becomes habit, make something else your absolute must do goal. Hope that makes sense! :) I recommend getting on here every day just to keep the thought of health on your mind - I know when I stop logging in, everything else starts to stop too. Coming back every day really helps remind me what my goals and focus are and that I'm not alone. emoticon
    1509 days ago
  • v LOSINGITAGN
    THIS IS WHEN YOU WIN...YOU HAVE STOPPED THE EXCUSES (THAT WAS ME A MONTH AGO) AND TOOK CONTROL OF WHAT YOU NEED TO DO. FIND A MANTRA, LIKE A CHANT WHEN YOU DONT WANT TO DO RIGHT EX: 135 LBS, AND KEEP REPEATING IT...RIGHT NOW IM JUST CHANTING SZ 10, AND WHEN I REACH THAT IT WILL BE SZ 8....WE CAN DO THIS...MIND OVER MATTER!!!
    1509 days ago
  • v COLEYGIRL4
    You can do it! Don't give up. Prayers coming your way :)
    1509 days ago
  • v GARDENCHRIS
    it is only bad if you do not get back on! SO GET BACK ON THE TRAIN!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1509 days ago
  • v CMKARLS
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  • v THEEXERCISER
    I am praying for you emoticon
    1509 days ago
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