Saturday, July 07, 2012
Sometimes, I wonder if I love myself enough to finally lose this weight. You see, I am obese, I have diabetes and high blodd pressure. I take about 6 pills a day and still I have not taken my weight loss journey serious enough to do what I know I need to do to lose this weight. Right now at this very moment I am crying because it seems like this is the first time I am admitting to myself that I have not loved myself enough to finally take care of me. It is like a revelation. I have been overweight for so long, it seems that it is all that I know. Is it that I am so comfortable where I am right now? I don't think so. As a matter of fact, I am so unhappy with myself. I talk about never giving up, however, how about let's get started. It's like you can't give up what you are not even doing.
I sit up in my Weight Watchers meeting every Saturday and I never raise my hand to celeberate anything because I have nothing to celebrate. As a amatter of fact, I actually gained 4 lbs. this week. Truthfully, I am a hypocrite.
There is so much more I need to share, but I am truly overwhelmed right now and I simply can't.
I guess the good thing is that I at least wrote this.
All the best to each of you.