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    KERRYMONIQUE   23,390
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OmG! What's wrong with me???

Saturday, July 07, 2012

I'm so freakin frustrated!!! I GAINED 6lbs this week! 6 freakin pounds!! Actually over 6 pounds!!! I just don't know what to do anymore!

I realize that I am struggling and may be far from on target, but this is ridiculous! At the beginning of May I was at 216.2 and I'm now at 229.6. Wrong direction! I don't know what to do! I've been doing awesome with junk food, no fast food for well over 6 weeks. Significantly cut down on all dining out and what I'm ordering when I'm dining out. Boosted freggies and reoriented my entire eating plan towards plant based, whole foods and decreased my animal by-product intake. Nothing extreme and, like I said, I'm far from perfect, but still!!! I'm also increasing all my activity, at extreme additional mental and physical pain; I'm pushing myself to get moving.

The only thing I can possibly imagine causing me to gain weight at this rate would be a medication. Unfortunately, none of my doctors are able to point out which medication, nor do they think it is one. But in all my days of dieting and taking meds, the only time I've gained at this rate was either when I was binging all the time, visiting my hometown of New Orleans, or due to a medication.

I'm struggling with cravings all the time. I'm at that point of this process where this feels like a diet, I feel deprived, because I'm constantly wanting crap foods, regardless of being hungry. I'm at that apex of emotional connection to dieting - food is still a coping mechanism and I'm well aware of trying to cut out this use (or abuse) of food. I've been doing pretty good, but I usually get past this emotional state when I see the progress in my body: more energy, better work outs, weight loss, clothes fitting better, etc. Since this is NOT happening, this whole process and effort feels like torture!!! Total freakin torture!

How can I keep working so hard at things and fail so miserably?



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MISSCUS 2/12/2013 6:59PM

    do you eat wheat?? I had similar problems. I read Wheat Belly by Dr Davis. Stopping wheat put an end to many, if not all my problems. Just saying, it's worth a try.

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SLIMMERJESSE 7/9/2012 3:50PM

    A few weeks ago, I blogged about my astonishment that the scale showed a 6 lb gain in two days. I knew I didn't do that damage in 48 hours. A day later, down 3 lbs, and two days after that, down 3 more. Weight can vary so much, it's amazing. Do not get discouraged. Don't let the scale be the final word.

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REACHING4HOME 7/9/2012 3:48PM

    "WEB MD" HAS A WONDERFUL LIST OF DRUG SIDE EFFECTS. GOOGLE IT. YOU COULD VERY WELL BE RIGHT - IT COULD BE A MEDICATION - UNLESS THERE IS NOTHING NEW YOU ARE TAKING.
ANOTHER AREA TO CHECK IS YOUR SODIUM INTAKE. THERE IS SO MUCH HIDDEN SODIUM IN FOOD THAT WE KNOW NOTHING ABOUT. GETTING OFF THE JUNK FOOD IS WONDERFUL. GOOD FOR YOU! BUT ARE YOU DRINKING DIET SODA?
BEING DIABETIC, I THOUGHT THAT WAS ALL I COULD HAVE. THEN I SAW THREE DIFFERENT ARTICLES THAT SAID DIET SODA CAN ACTUALLY MAKE YOU GAIN WEIGHT. WHAT? SO I THOUGHT I WOULD JUST GIVE IT UP FOR LENT - TO SEE IF IT MADE A DIFFERENCE. I DID NOTHING ELSE DIFFERENT AT ALL AND I LOST 8 POUNDS! I HAVEN'T HAD A DIET POP SINCE. NOW I DRINK WATER WITH FRESH FRUIT IN IT - LEMON, LIME, PEACH, STRAWBERRY AND EVEN MELON. I JUST SMASH THE FRUIT AND STIR IT IN AND IT IS SO REFRESHING. IF YOU HAVE A BLENDER OR A TINY FOOD PROCESSOR, YOU CAN PUREE THE FRUIT SMALL ENOUGH THAT YOU CAN GET IT THROUGH A STRAW.
DO NOT GET DOWN ON YOURSELF ABOUT THIS. YOU ARE MAKING POSITIVE CHANGES. YOU CAN WORK ON THE REST LATER. RIDDING YOUR BODY OF THE JUNK AND LEARNING TO USE IT IN NEW WAYS, WILL PAY OFF BEFORE YOU KNOW IT.
ERIN emoticon emoticon emoticon

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2BDYNAMIC 7/7/2012 11:08PM

    Hi Kerry,
I did not read the above due to the hour ....... But I have to ask: "What Meds?" ........... Since you have been workin so hard etc. as you said, gotta say, "somethin clicked" when you said meds .........
Ya see, sev. yrs. back my 'former' Dr. decided to put me on anti-depressants! It was a DARK PERIOD to say the least. Not only was I "blato' ... a complete personality CHANGE... but I went from barely eating to stuffing...... and you mentioned the constant hunger. ........ Stress will bring appetite on like a bull charges if someone waves a red flag! ..... But I could not get a handle on the meds ...... and went to my TOP weight! ......... Did you say you discussed this w/ the Doc? ...... I ahve also known a number of people who did the same thing ......... GAIN lots of weight, but after they ditched the meds....... began taking it off. I know one gal who gained FIFTY pounds ...... (she took it off too) ...... Do not jump off any bridges........... there HAS TO BE A reason ........... Hang in ok? ...... here for ya! ....

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MELT2BEAUTIFUL 7/7/2012 2:14PM

    I'm sorry you are feeling frustrated! I can relate! I gained weight rather quickly and so I am now trying juice cleansing. I feel like my intestines are so full and my stomach just keeps expanding. Just in the few days of adding more fresh juice and cutting solids back has helped but I have a long way to go. In the past, my weight gain was always in the legs or butt (I'm pear shaped). Now it's the stomach and I have grown a rather large tire around my middle. I do know that everyday we try is better then not trying. If you want to talk or need extra support, let me know! emoticon

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STEPHENSWORK 7/7/2012 1:45PM

    I've had a similar experience, but feel I'm about to break-out. I decieded to stop eating anything that doesn't require a Knife and Fork! I've got a Yoga routine and when I'm upside down with my feet in the air, the amount of belly hanging down right in front of my nose has brought home the idea that portion control really needs to be addressed. Its been a couple of months now, but I'm in it for the long haul even though I've not seen an appreciable decrease in weight. But It's a learning curve, and I've worked through the "unconsciencely incompetent" phase, I think I must now be in the "consciencely incompetent" phase. Can't wait to be "unconsciencely competent" at this.

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OOLALA53 7/7/2012 12:44PM

    Keep looking for a way you would be willing to live even if you didn't lose a lot of weight. You don't really want to live feeling bonded to food, especially junk food. It's hard to learn to have favorite foods in moderation, but it is doable and has the highest maintenance rate. If you are eating consistently moderately and improving the quality of your food, plus moving consistently, try to find pride in that while you work out the details. I believe you will find a resolution, but it may take longer than you'd like. What's for sure is that totally giving up and going back to abandon is only going to prolong the pain.

I know it sounds crazy but try to let go of weight loss for awhile. Are you getting nothing else out of the changes you've made? Feeling less stuffed, more peppy? Try to keep your thoughts going back to ANY positives when your find your mind drawn to the disadvantages. Your discipline WILL pay off.

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SKINNYYENNY 7/7/2012 10:34AM

    I've read through a few of your posts, and it seems you are having a tough go of it, for which I"m sorry. I have a friend that had similiar issues with GI tract/Crohn's, and went through several years of meds and pain, until she finally went to a DO/holistic doctor and got on track with her eating. She found out she had allergies to a whole list of things her drs. never told her or even tested her for. For instance, they'd done a gluten test which came back negative - guess what, she got off gluten and it changed her life! She's also sensitive to peppers, eggplants - a bunch of things no one ever even tested her for.

I know it's easy to say don't get discouraged, but I'm saying it! Make a plan to make yourself better - get second and third opinions, try different meds and methods of dealing with your issues aside from taking a bunch of perscription meds. You are never going to get better if you are depressed - and the weight gain does that - it's just a big neverending cycle, isn't it?! Take charge of your health, don't let the drs run it for you. I know you're a nurse, so you're informed - just don't give up hope yet and look for alternatives. You can get healthy!

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NDTEACHER1 7/7/2012 9:52AM

    What meds are you taking if I might ask. Meds can do that, I gained 60 pounds from long term daily use of prednisone for an autoimmune disease and my son has gained weight from a anti depressant too. I was diligent for a whole month, eating less than 1200 calories some days and lost a whole .4 of a pound. I am not going to let it defeat me because I read an article that said too few calories, too little sleep and exercise can be one of about 10 reasons it listed for weight gain, those are the ones I think may be inhibiting weight loss right now. Hang in there, you'll be okay, don't give up.

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NELLJONES 7/7/2012 9:19AM

    One of the things I noticed about healthy losing is that you eat just under what your body requires so you will lose slowly. Problem with that is that it doesn't take much to blow an entire week of work.

I also found that the longer I went without Reeses and Cheetos, the less I craved them. Took a few months, and I can reverse it with one bite, but the cravings did indeed lessen over the months and years.

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