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Still in the Game!

Friday, July 06, 2012

Iím not much of an athlete, and never really appreciated Jonathan Rocheís (one of my favorite podcasters) sports analogy until the last couple months. But, suddenly, it became my mantra. ďAs long as Iím still in the game.Ē Canít have solid food? Nope, but I can drink my water and work on staying positive. Canít have fat? Nope, but I can still eat Greek yogurt to get my protein, and eat as many fruits and veggies as possible. Canít do intense aerobics? Nope, but I can walk and do light gardening. One month after my pancreas surgery, Iím feeling good, and all because of habits I developed here at SP, and because I made sure to keep myself ďin the gameĒ.

Recovery was harder than I expected. Iíve always had a pretty high tolerance for pain, but oh my! I could finally eat, but I had no appetite, and food tasted funny. Water had a strange metallic taste, so it was hard to get down. Most people who have pancreas surgery lose 15-30 pounds, and, since I was already at my goal weight and against quick weight loss, I was determined not to be one of them. So, I focused on quality over quantity, and somehow managed to keep my weight steady. I had a drain in my side Ė a hole and a plastic tube sticking out, where blood and other nasty stuff oozed out into a bag. It was disgusting, and it messed with my head. Fortunately, Kevin took care of it for me, because the one time I looked at it, I had a panic attack of epic proportions, and after nearly passing out numerous times, spent the rest of the afternoon sleeping it off. The drain caused some medical problems as well, eventually sending me to the ER, leading to a blood infection scare that also messed with my head. But, last week the drain was removed, the blood retest and path reports came back negative, and all of my wounds are just about healed. The point here is, I am stronger than I thought, and despite the difficulties, I made the best choices I could.

My doctor told me that the more I moved the better Iíd feel, but I couldnít bend, twist, or lift more than ten pounds. So the day after I got home from the hospital, I committed myself to a fitness challenge (Thanks, Ducky!), and promised myself at least 30 minutes of walking/gardening every day. On the bad days, I had to force myself to do it - Iíd have to promise myself only five or ten minutes at a time, but I got it done. I was able to quiet my negative voice (the one that told me I was losing my muscle tone, and that my lack of intensity wasnít good) by telling myself I was still in the game, that everything counts. And it does!
So, here I am, still at my goal weight, and feeling great. I have been cleared to do ďanything that doesnít hurtĒ. I just added ST back into my routine, and am keeping myself off my butt as much as possible. Today I will walk before it gets hot, and then try some yoga. (Last week I tried the plank pose, and let me just say OY! But I think Iím ready to give it another shot.) Iím trying to be gentle with myself, and to add things gradually, so next week I plan to add some fast walking intervals to my walks (no running intervals until six weeks). My next surgery (the hysterectomy) has been rescheduled for July 23rd, and, by then, I plan to be as strong and healthy as I can possibly be!

-I feel great! No pain meds since last Friday!
-The support I have received throughout this physical challenge has left me with no doubt that I matter.
-My air conditioner works well! Dang, itís hot out there.
-My husband went grocery shopping, and my cabinets and fridge are full of healthy, tasty foods I am allowed to eat! Thankfully, my taste buds are back to normal.
-I do not have cancer. Although I had been assured of this earlier on, my surgeon was suspicious.
-I no longer have a drain in my side. Ugg.
-I am incredibly thankful for all of my SP friends who have sent messages, goodies and emails. Bless you all!!


Member Comments About This Blog Post:
JMARIES51 7/19/2012 1:52PM

    Karen, I have been following you on FB, but decided to come back to Spark. It is just easier for me to track, etc.

I am thinking that you are getting close to hysterectomy time, no? I sure hope your recovery is easy and you are able to gain your strength back quickly. What a journey? You are so inspirational. And Kevin deserves a medal for his caregiving. Lots of love an hugs, my friend. Joann emoticon

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TEENY_BIKINI 7/8/2012 3:49PM

    Thanks for the update. Your attitude and approach are inspiring.

You are, indeed, in the game - and winning.


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LESLIES537 7/7/2012 5:00PM

    Bless your heart! Your strength and positivity are inspiring. You are still very much in the game!! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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JLITT62 7/6/2012 12:20PM

    I am SO glad you updated us! And I am, as always impressed - but not surprised! - by your hard work.

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JUSTDUCKY1405 7/6/2012 12:08PM

    So happy to read this. You sound great.

And... of course you matter!!!

Love you so much and you handled this amazingly.

And you're most welcome! I was very impressed you joined and did so well. Again, you are a great inspiration!

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FIT_TERI 7/6/2012 10:16AM

    Gosh, that sounds like quite the ordeal, Karen. I'm so glad you're feeling better and getting stronger. How nice for you to learn that you're stronger than you thought you were. And I agree with MAZZYR - your determination is inspiring!

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MAZZYR 7/6/2012 10:02AM

    Oh Karen, I'm so glad you're feeling better.

I love hearing that you're Still in the Game! Thank you for sharing your experience. Your determination is inspiring.


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EARTHSEAME 7/6/2012 9:36AM

    emoticon I'm so glad to hear you are feeling better. Congratulations on your determination and good choices!

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