Thursday, July 05, 2012
I have done so amazingly well on my new way of eating, that I have started to have those unrealistic expectations start up again. Losing 45 pounds in 3 months gets you to expecting that you will always be doing that thru this process and I will continue to visualize and believe that this can happen....but I got to remembering that when I started this weight loss experience yet again, that I would be patient with myself. That was why I put January of 2014 to reach my goal. That would have given me almost 2 years to lose my weight. I have shrunk so fast, that I have had to buy new clothes. My husband and I just sent off our last payment to our last credit card earlier this week so are now officially credit card debt free and its an amazing feeling. To celebrate, he is taking me to a very expensive fancy restaurant in Dallas in 1 month which will also be to celebrate my birthday at the same time. I don't have any dresses that fit me well so I have started to do a little dress shopping. It hasn't been as exciting as I hoped because I am ready to fit into those smaller sizes now. I am at that in between stage where I am too small for womens sizes and right at size 16 for regular sizes...add in that I am pear shaped and this seasons style of dresses...I haven't had too much luck. Then again, I may lose another 10 pounds prior to our date, and that could affect my size again...so I can't really buy anything right now as it is. Needless to stay, I started to get a little frustrated because I wasn't having any luck.
Don't we all suffer from this where we finally take that plunge and decide to get healthy, but we want it to happen in 1 month time...LOL. I have lost weight before and know how good I can look at smaller sizes and I just want to be there now. This is where I need to have that patience. To not let that frustration enter my life. You ask why? Because the more frustrated we become the more stress we add to our situation...and the more stress we add the more resistant we become to losing that weight we so desperately want to come off. We have to remember that this is a journey...not instant teleportation from one point to another. I feel that its for this reason that many of us give up before the journey is done because we lose sight of why we started this.
Remind yourself always that no matter how long it takes, that we deserve to be patient until the very end. That we are not failures because it didn't happen right now...it can and will happen when the universe is ready for it to be so.
I have so many things to be grateful for. I have never been debt free before and its the most amazing feeling in the world...to be getting healthy on top of that and feeling good about myself is also tremendous. Love yourself everyday and give yourself a pat on the back...don't let that scale determine how you feel for the day. We are more than any number on a machine.