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The challenge:

Thursday, July 05, 2012

For those of you who follow my blogs know that I am an insane pessimistic. I have been yo-yo dieting for about a year now with nothing to show for it except a shelf full of work out dvd's, health and weight loss books and a trash can full of tissues from the tears of feeling completely hopeless.
We all know the feeling of not wanting to change. Afraid to fail I like to call it. It comes to a point when you are right in the middle of a cross roads when a voice in your head says " this way to better health and feeling great... or this way to just stay in the same plus size jeans and cover yourself with light sweaters in 100 degree heat". There have been many times when I have gone to the healthy side and let me tell you its a long walk to the finish!!! But its better than staying where you are being completely uncomfortable in your own skin. This is the only body suit we get.. I cant believe I let mine stretch out and look as nasty as it does. But when you have it covered you never see whats underneath.
July 3rd was my 27th birthday and let me tell you it was not a happy one. I used to get so excited for my birthdays and I would make it a full week event. Not anymore. I used to be so happy and would run around and not worry about showing my body because I wasn't ashamed of it. Now, forget it! So I realized that some serious changes need to be made.. starting with:
emoticon How I see myself: I used smile and laugh.. I think sometime just to hear myself. Never cared what people thought about me. Always had my chin held high. Wanted better things for myself instead of settling for whats easy.

emoticon I need to stop feeling sorry for myself: What good does it really do??? It doesn't!!! It makes it worse. Stop looking out the window and wanting the past... I need to look forward to my future of health and happiness.

emoticon Gotta keep pushing: When the crossroads starts coming up on that long road again I need to just bite the bullet and keep going. I know I will feel better when I reach my goal.. it going to take a lot of hard work. Most likely a lot of sweat and tears too! But it has to be done. It's time for the chapter in my life to start and keep it going until im gone. Im worth it!!!

emoticon Get rid of the junk: I know everyone says you have to cheat sometimes. You need to treat yourself. But for me.. psh!!! that's like giving me a million dollars and taking it back! It just cant be done. The junk needs to go... it's bad for me anyway! It tastes soooo good but... it's not for me anymore.

emoticon Eat the good stuff: I love me some veggies I really do. So I am going to go nuts... Swap out the junk for all that yummy healthy stuff. All fresh or frozen of course.
::Mental note::: Make salad for dinner....
My only problem is the salad dressing... I use toooooo much.. going to cut back and get the spray stuff.. it's really good so it wont be so bad. VEGGIES AND PROTEIN BABY!!! lots of water too... It can be done.. WILL POWER!!! I GOT THIS!!!

emoticon STOP BEING SO LAZY!!!! : Seriously this is my down fall. I just need to get up off my butt and do the work... I want to start getting excited for working out. I am going to be bettering myself so why wouldn't I want to do this!!! Even when I don't want to when I feel like I cant even think about working on the fitness... I WILL.... I HAVE TO DO THIS... FOR ME AND NO ONE ELSE...

So this is the challenge I give to myself.. DONT TRY!!! JUST DO!!!! I will feel so much better when I get to my goal and I can say at the top of my lunges I did this!! I DID THIS... AND I FEEL GREAT!!!

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JERZGURL_NAN 7/5/2012 10:21PM

    JUST - DO IT!!!

JUST GET STARTED. emoticon emoticon

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KAPELAKIN 7/5/2012 9:48PM

    Keep Sparking and you will get there. Salads are a great thing, but don't forget the unprocessed carbs and lean proteins. I use fresh squeezed lemon and diced avocado on my salads and don't even miss the dressing. Avocado is fatty, but a healthy fat, and I swear it helps the weight just slide off. Get started and you'll be amazed at how proud of yourself you can be. Pick a habit you want to change and set it as a Spark Streak! emoticon

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FATHINSN 7/5/2012 8:47PM

    Good luck with adapting to the new changes!

I like to eat fruits but the problem is I'm so lazy to peel them! No wonder bananas are my most favourite food as it's the easist fruit to peel :D

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    It sounds like you have an excellent grip on what you need to do. Keep at it and don't give up. And a belated happy birthday to you!

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CHEETARA79 7/5/2012 4:04PM

    I think those are good goals but they'd be better if you defined them more. Eat the good stuff? Set a goal of 4 servings of veggies and 2 servings of fruit a day, or something like that. Set that goal for at least 5 days a week and try to do it for a month. If you achieve that goal, at the end of the month give yourself a non-food reward.

Similarly, set up some concrete benchmarks for your workout routine. For example, train for a month to do 5 real man pushups or to run a mile without stopping. Those goals are trackable and quantifiable. It'll be easier to hold yourself accountable if you set up defined goals and a training program.

Personally, I find that when I set up easier goals that I know I can achieve, the momentum from my success can propel me to achieve even more. Don't be afraid to set those small goals rather than trying to change everything all at once.

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TURTLERASKIN 7/5/2012 3:49PM

    I so hear you! There are certain types of junk food that I just can't allow in my house anymore, even though at one time I was able to eat them in moderation. But at some point they just became like triggers, so they're out now.

As for the exercise, what seems to be helping me is setting a weekly goal for minutes of exercise. Then if I want to skip a night, I know that means I have to make up the minutes elsewhere. BUT what seems to be helping is that I now plan my skipping, so that when I'm out for my walk, I'll add ten minutes to it "so I can get ahead."

Anyway, I know how you feel, and I'm so proud of you for not giving up despite the struggles. You can do this!

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