I had to give up on my juice fast with 3 and 1/2 days left. Okay, maybe not "had". I am still beating myself up over it and feel like a failure and not to mention really emotional. It wasn't an easy decision by any means but I still did it.
My husband is being VERY supportive and he knows this fast meant the world to me. He is making some good points: "My body benefited from the fast, even for the 10+ days that I did, I was able to "jump start" my body, give it a cleanse and also give it the nutrients it deserved. That break is something that my body needed and it was necessary." I just hope some day soon, I can take them and really embrace them.
It was 6 o'clock on Day 11 (went all day, basically) that my body and mind, just had enough. I wasn't properly doing the juice fast anymore, as it came down to a mere 22oz of juice and 100's of ounces of water, which was starving my body. As much as I knew that, I still continued to do nothing about it. My body was starting to get weak and ill, so I was doing more harm then good, at this point. I am happy that I was able to do the fast for as long as I did and the pre-juice too, but I just wish I had the strength and mindset to finish it out. Oh well, I can't go back now.
It wasn't the "holiday" cookouts or parties or "doings" going on that triggered it, as we didn't do anything special but spend time as a family. I went through a cook-out party the week I was on my pre-fast diet and didn't even stumbled during that. I wished I could eat those foods at that time (not anymore), but I brought my own food, so that wouldn't be a problem. It just happened to be on a holiday that the time came.
I know its a process and will take time (ups and downs), but I am confident that I will make the right choices and move along on my journey to a "healthier" me.
My first post-fast food consisted of boiled potatoes and some grapes. My body certainly was "shocked" as I was shaking from the first few bites. My body also had some weird adjustment "pangs" later that evening. I had my first bad sleep (ugh, not again) since the fast started. I was tossing and turning all night. I hope I don't go back to those sleepless nights.
I will continue the next week with the fruits and veggies (raw and cooked) only and transition into other foods after that, NOT THE UNHEALTHY ones.
Thank you to everyone for sticking by me and giving your support along the way. I feel bad that I just couldn't muster out those last few days, but I need to "TRY" and concentrate on my next process (post-fast).
I was +.4 pounds this morning, but I am not giving up hope, as my body is adjusting and my TOM.