Wednesday, July 04, 2012
Monday I had ventral hernia repair surgery. It was outpatient and overall an eye opening experience. I deal with panic attacks that come out of nowhere. I had one soon after I checked in and was brought to my bed. My husband was with me and is a blessing. He was fanning me with a pamphlet while I layer in bed burning up, sweating and not feeling good at all. He and the nurse helped me breathe through it along with something to relax me through the IV. Thankfully I didn't have to wait long and the OR was much cooler then the ambulatory care unit. Last I remember was being wheeled in, one arm out for BP and other for the IV. Something burned in the IV and after I announced that, I felt dizzy......and then I woke up back in ambulatory care, all done! After the anesthesia wore off, I was on my way home. Monday was ok the res f the day, Tuesday was very painful and today is somewhat better. Almost time for more Advil :)
So I'm home from work for a few days. Watching all kinds of tv that I normally don't, Springer, judge shows up the wazoo and talk shows too. Can use my iPad but sitting up for my laptop is very painful. I had planned on working from home but so far it doesn't look like that will work out.
On top of talk shows, I'm reading a stash of magazines I've been hoarding. Each time one thing about health or weightloss comes up, I'm all into it. My mind tries to wrap arnd it and I think I should try whatever supplements, eating plan or book they talk about. I distract myself from what I know works to try something else....and I always go back to what works....but it is a seemingly endless cycle that I need to improve.
What works for me is Weight Watchers. When I DO it, it works, I feel good..go figure right? But yet I let myself be distracted. I'm going to take these next few days to reflect on that and start from scratch with all the tools WW offers. I enjoy SP because it is a community of healthy people and that is what I need to surround myself with.
It feels good setting a plan :)