Wednesday, July 04, 2012
For months I've been telling myself I need to get back on track!
Not just with weight loss.
Not just with regaining health.
Not just with simplifying my life.
Not just with finding the right schedule for me.
Not just with regular study habits.
Not just with daily routines.
Not just with building my business.
WITH EVERYTHING - ALL OF THE ABOVE AND THEN SOME!
WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME?
It's like my brain is all scrambled, my heart is all mush, my body is all thumbs!
Nothing seems to be going as planned, as hoped for, as expected, as it should!
I do things that used to help motivate me but it's not working like it used to.
I tell myself positive affirmations but don't really believe them - so they do nothing.
I keep saying, tomorrow will be better... then it's not!
BUT I THINK I MAY HAVE DISCOVERED SOMETHING!
Everyone that knows me knows how much stress I've been under lately.
Times were tough prior to my son's bad accident; but they got a lot tougher after that!
We hoped for better times as tax refunds came in and helped us out with those past due bills that were piling up.
We hoped for better times when we got my sister and niece moved back down to Texas after living with us for 8 years.
We hoped for better times in reducing clutter and excess by selling or giving away things we no longer needed.
But, over the last weekend I realized something we weren't doing as much or at all perhaps.
We weren't always praying for Jehovah to help us in these matters.
Not that we weren't praying at all - just that we weren't doing it enough AND for some things we weren't doing it at all because we didn't think they were important enough.
Coming from someone who prays for and about many things several times during any given day this is a huge discovery!
How could I not be praying enough?
At first I did not understand this, nor how this information affected me personally.
But as I meditated on this; as I dug deeper; as I reviewed all my notes on this; suddenly it hit me like a huge wave of icy cold water on a blistering hot summer's day!
Everything, ANYTHING, that is a part of our life, that has ANY affect on us in any way IS IMPORTANT TO JEHOVAH GOD, especially if it is having any negative affect on the things we do to serve him!!!
SO NOW WHAT?
NOW, I will pray about my weight loss.
NOW, I will pray about regaining my health.
NOW, I will pray about simplifying my life.
NOW, I will pray about finding the right schedule for me.
NOW, I will pray about redeveloping regular study habits.
NOW, I will pray about finding and sticking with my daily routines.
NOW, I will pray about building my business.
NOW, I will pray about EVERYTHING - ALL OF THE ABOVE AND THEN SOME!
Our relationship with our Creator is a vital part of being a human being and the most direct way to communicate with our Creator is through PRAYER!
Maybe there are some here that don't believe that - each one is entitled to his/her own opinion but this is what I believe down into the deepest depths of my whole heart, soul and mind.
That makes this vitally important to me and coming to this new depth of understanding or realization or whatever you want to call it IS where I'm going to find the motivation, the strength, the courage, or whatever it is that I need, that my loved ones need, in order to accomplish our goals!