I've never been tiny
Tuesday, July 03, 2012
I think that sometimes I have an unrealistic ideal of my body. I look at magazines, watch hollywood and read about body building fitness professionals. They all look great but at what cost? Are they really doing something all that different than me? I do not want to starve myself for thin, it seems pointless and I'd be very hungry. Not at all worth it to me. I can admit that I have eaten pretty awful the last few weeks and I know that it is out of frustration. I am just not losing. No matter how I tweek my diet, I am not losing. I exercise as often as possible, which is about 3xs a week...I have a job that demands me to move constantly...but I am NOT losing.
Once upon a time, I was a trainer and wrote nutritional maps for my clients to follow. I know that diet has a lot to do with weight loss and I know how to eat to thin down...BUT I AM NOT LOSING....
Seriously, my body hates me :( It is leaving me with cellulite thighs, chub hips and too much belly. Ideal??? I don't know. I want to be a combination of all that I see minus my gelly. I want firm arms without the wings...I want a firm belly than isn't smooshed by my pants, I want tight legs that do not look bumpy.
I know...keep at it, in time and patience. 3 1/2 months since I went back to the gym and my body just will not lose... sigh...another day.