Tuesday, July 03, 2012
Since my mini-breakdown the other day (see previous blog -- "Self-Consciousness"), I have been quite on the up-and-up. I really believe that a good portion of my negative feelings were due to hormones. However, there is still a part of me that is not comfortable with where I am. I'm working on that, and that's all anyone can ask for.
It certainly helps that while watching models on the catwalk on TV, Axel said, "They're way too thin."
I got a new bike during the massive sales we've had in France lately. The grocery store Cora (like Super Walmart, but bigger-- if you can imagine that) had a particular women's bike on sale for 50% off. Out of the blue, my darling Axel asked me if I would like it. Honestly, I don't go biking much. We already have a man's bike (his), but I don't ride it because I like to be with someone when I go bike riding. He bought it, promising that we'd go biking together.
In addition to having a brand new bike to play with, Axel has kept his promise. I can't go far on the bike because it's uphill in every direction. However, we go riding anyway. He said that it reminded him of when we first met in Gainesville. He used to coax me into getting off the couch and going bike riding with him -- something that I thought was ridiculous during the summer heat waves of Florida. We had tons of fun then, though. What I love about having two bikes now is that it not only benefits my health and his, but it also brings us closer as a couple. Just before the wedding, that's a good thing to have happen!
Speaking of the wedding, I'm getting married in like 3 weeks. How crazy is that?!
I have mentioned before that I tend to gain weight during my time of the month. I also lose it right after. I weighed myself this morning and was at 63.5 kg (about 139 lbs), but I hesitate to put it in the weight tracker because I just weighed myself on Sunday at 64 kg. I'll wait until Friday just before I go to Italy for a week. Then I'll weigh myself when I get back. I plan to lose weight on this vacation, since we'll be doing a lot of walking!
Anywho, I am working like crazy, and should get back to that work. If you have any extra good thoughts, good vibes, transferable good karma, or prayers to send my way, I would appreciate it. I also have meeting with the director of a private Catholic school here, and they need an English teacher. Please wish me luck!!!