It's July already; this year is flying by on skids! The end of June marks the halfway mark for 2012, and I know it's time for an update. I have not been as active on the site, but I am on every day soaking up information and cheering on my fellow sparkers. You guys absolutely ROCK!!!!
I'm 8.2 pounds from goal weight; I would like to finally see that number before this year is over. I've been dealing with lots of stress, financial issues, back pain, and fibromyalgia pain flares. . .SO, just this small amount of weight loss is going to be a challenge for me.
HOWEVER, I want it more with every passing day. . .and I want to do it before this year is over BECAUSE I want to make a new goal for 2013, and that goal is ease myself back into regular exercise. I've done this journey thus far on the strength of controlling my diet and being a generally 'active' person.
After my car accident in '09, I couldn't even bend over. . .so I got busted back to square one right when I was getting some exercise momentum. I have not gotten that momentum back since. Until recently, I didn't even concern myself over it too much. I have some sparkfriends who are doing great things on the exercise front (you know who you are), and they are making me jealous!
This is a good kind of jealousy, though. I used to be an exercise nut; if it was exercise, I liked it. I would try anything at least once. I really liked being that way, and for the first time in a long time, I am beginning to believe I actually CAN be that person again.
To be honest, after that car accident I didn't really think I'd ever exercise again beyond a little stroll on my treadmill once in a while. For a long time, that was fine by me. I'm so glad it's not fine by me anymore.
I want MORE out of my life than just working, eating, and sleeping. . .with some crafty things and my pets thrown in for good measure. I want to carve out some time to find my inner exercise diva again :)!
SO, to recap the first six months of this year. . .I lost more weight between January and March, then gained some from March to May. . .then wavered back and forth until the last week of June. I found my focus again (don't ask me how many times I've had to do that), and I'm heading for my mini-goal of reclaiming my March weight. I have about 5 pounds to go. And YES, I was only 3 pounds from goal when I let it fall apart. I'm still figuring out why that happens to me. I wonder if I'm afraid of hitting my goal weight and not being able to stay there???
Anyway, I'm not going to let that bother me right now, because thanks to ON2VICTORY and his series on emotional eating, I have a pretty good idea what I need to be focusing on to get off the merry-go-round and stay off of it. I have been doing research and reading. The scale may not have moved much, but I have been learning lessons that will make it move again, and I am going to make that goal weight. It's going to be very sweet, and I am going to enjoy it. . .for a little while.
THEN, I'm getting busy. I'm not waiting for January to start exercising. I'm going to start extremely small, but I have big dreams. I used to walk 3 miles every morning. I think I'd like to be able to do that again, and I actually believe I CAN for the first time in ages!
I am finished with limiting myself. I have fibromyalgia, yes I do. I have a bad back, yes I do. I have sciatica, yes I do. I also have something else. . .I have D-E-T-E-R-M-I-N-A-T-I-O-N and I have D-R-E-A-M-S. And you know what? I have a choice: I can keep setting limits, or I can just make it happen. The worst that can happen is I find out maybe I can't quite do what I used to. . but I can do SOMETHING. Something is ever so much better than nothing. I will never know if I never try. So, I'm done playing it safe.
And hey, I'm coming up on a term renewal for my life insurance. It sure would help if I was at goal weight AND fit when I walk in the door for my physical!
So there it is in a not-so-small nutshell. I've been saving it up for you guys. I'll try not to wait so long before the next blog. MOSTMOM1 has inspired me to try and figure out how to do a video blog, so sometime or another I'll really surprise you guys!
Okay, I'm off to do some alterations and then get ready for work tomorrow. Guess what? I'm going to set my alarm earlier so I can take a little stroll on my treadmill after breakfast tomorrow morning. I can't even remember the last time I did that.
Thanks for the inspiration and encouragement. You guys ROCK!!!!
I feel like Rocky!