I met with Yoda Saturday morning.
Things felt awkward to me at first - I felt like there was still this unsaid hurt between us. He was professional and I was quiet. Normally we chat about all sorts of things while I'm sweating profusely all over the gym.
It could have been because of the workout. Seriously. It was so tough that I could barely breathe, much less hold a conversation. At one point he asked me a question while I was walking on a treadmill at a 21% incline and I could not physically answer him until I was done with that part.
He gets concerned when I can't talk while working out. I think he uses it to gauge how close I am to passing out.
I haven't passed out yet, but I've been close. Yoda has even told me before that he would rather have me throw up than have me pass out. I politely informed him that I'd rather pass out than throw up, so he was out of luck.
Anyway, so part of it could have been the workout. On top of it being tough, I was determined to show him that I was working hard so I really dug in and pushed myself. I didn't want to have any excuse to fight.
When we were done, we were sitting at his desk discussion what I needed to do the coming week. There was a point where the conversation died and I felt awkward again. So I apologized again for the week before and said that I wanted to be sure that things were okay.
He said that of course we were and that we were just both having a bad day last week.
I think that's the truth, too. Normally, I'm not a mean person. I don't say things in an unkind way on purpose. Normally, he listens to me and he understands when I overreact to things. Instead, we both were just at the end of our "ropes" and it caused drama.
But he and I are good.
Also, Fire Man and I are good. Except that he's KILLING me at this bet. He's lost 7 pounds. I've lost 4. I talked to Yoda about it and he has completely changed my workout. I now do weights and cardio every time I go to the gym. I have two workouts that I switch between. I can even do one of them in the morning and the other at night.
In addition to that, I'm trying new foods. I've added oatmeal to my breakfast and he wants me to try fish.
I am SUCH a chicken when it comes to seafood. Seriously. I think it smells weird. And looks weird. And feels weird. And I'm pretty sure that if you don't watch it closely it will jump off your plate and find a really good hiding spot.
We'll see. So far I'm not brave enough.
I had oatmeal this morning. It's soggy. I hate soggy foods, but I'll eat it because Yoda said to try it. Maybe one of these days I'll be brave enough to try fish but I wouldn't bet on it anytime soon.