Monday, July 02, 2012
I got a wedding invitation in the mail this weekend. Not just any wedding invitation, but one to my oldest son's wedding on August 18. As I opened it and saw his name in elegant script, so many feelings and thoughts flowed through my head and my heart. Part of me screams that I am nowhere near old enough to have a married child!! Part of me bites my nails and worries. Part of me is so happy that he's found someone to love. I hope and pray that my own divorce from his father doesn't mar the happiness of the day. Thankfully, his father and I are friends. Sadly, his father's new wife and I are not. What more can you wish for your child than a lifetime of love and contentment. I've always wished that I could wrap my boys in bubble wrap and spare them any hurt or discomfort. But, that's not how we learn and grow as humans. He's fallen...many a time and picked himself up as I stood quietly to the side biting my lip. There has always been unconditional love and hugs galore in his life. That's a firm foundation for a marriage.
With this wedding as motivation, I've been working hard to lose weight and firm up. I've got 6 weeks left. It's important to me to look my very best for him. I can't wait to see the pictures of us dancing together that I know will be taken. He's picked out a special song just for us. He won't tell me what it is, but regardless there will be tears. I'm already getting teased about that.
For the homestretch I will keep running, biking, and lifting. That's the easy part for me. The harder part will be staying within my calorie range, eating clean, and using moderation with alcohol. I've got 10-15 more pounds I'd like to lose. The hardest part of all...finding the perfect pair of purple shoes!!