Monday, July 02, 2012
Today is Monday but it is a good day. Why is it different than any other hum drum Monday? I'm not sure, but I think a lot of it has to do with attitude. I got a good night's sleep last night and woke up deciding to make it a good day. I hopped out of bed earlier than usual and started in on my day. I started laundry, made a healthy breakfast and then exercised.
For those of you who have been friends with me since the beginning, you know that I had much success the first six months on Spark, losing 63lbs and dropping from a size 24 to a 14. I was in heaven and feeling the best I have ever felt. That has been two years ago. Since then, I have battled my weight continuously moving closer and closer to my beginning weight. It has been very depressing at times and I have often wondered if I will ever truly lose the weight again.
Today the attitude has changed. I'm not sure why. I know for the last couple of months I have been playing the "woe is me" card because I have found out that I am gluten sensitive and have had to totally revamp my nutrition. I felt like it was so unfair yet it has been the answer to many of my health issues. I'm finally grasping the reality of it and using it to benefit me. I'm learning to eat a lot healthier because of it. If I can control something as big as that, I can control anything. A pity party is not gonna benefit me in any way. Getting off of my booty and taking control of my life once and for all is what is going to benefit me. It's time to live in the now! Not once the weight is gone, but now! There is too much life to live and enjoy and no number on the scale can change that.
I have set my first monthly weight loss goal for the first time in a long time. I set it at 10 lbs. That seems like a lot and scares me some because of the way my body has been acting for a while. Or, so I think. Maybe it is actually the laxness that I have been living without actually taking accountability for it. I know it is not all about the weight so that I am not going to come unglued if I do not reach that number this month. It is only a guide line for me to get me started. No matter what the results are at the end of the month, I just want to know that I gave it my all and I came out healthier because of it.
I just haven't felt this positive about losing the weight again in a long time. Maybe my brain finally kicked back into gear and latched back onto how this all works again. Whatever it is, I am just going to enjoy the ride and live to the best of my ability. Happy Monday!