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Hard to keep up..

Monday, July 02, 2012

Sometimes I struggle.. emotionally, internally.. because sometimes things are just larger than they appear and even though I try to keep up with everything, and keep good spirits, some days I wake up and I wonder how much more do we need to endure, how much more do we have to keep strong to get a break.. and how do I vent when I am unable to let others see my weaknesses.. Today is one of those days, unfortunately I just cant get past the struggles and my mind seems to be focused on finding no way out.. In a way, its good, because I need to be more realistic and less naive about life.. but at the same time, it sucks!

I am very glad to have this outlet.. sometimes the people you cant see, for people like me, are really a treasure..

Other than that I am happy to say that I have been eating quite well and also keeping active, I have to admit that I took the weekend off from exercising but I kept counting calories and my water intake was top notch.. today I am back to my morning workouts and even though I just had a bit of a rant, physically, I am feeling great.

I hope this week and this starting month brings great things for all of you, my dear sparkfriends.. and I am very happy to have you all!! emoticon
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    I understand. I'm going to do measurements this evening and weigh in the morning. I'm nervouse and I have the trip to the husband's family this weekend. So much! I like the yelling advice. I usually do it in my truck while I'm driving because no one has to here me and I get relief from what's stressful.
    2048 days ago
  • KATYDID412
    You're doing great, and you're awesome. Keep up the good work!

    And I completely agree about having this virtual support system. It's fantastic -- there are so many people here, someone's sure to be able to relate to what you're going through.

    I like John's advice too, about going outside and yelling really loud!

    2054 days ago
    WHITEWOLVE5555 - I am surprised at how well thinking 3 things has worked for me.. not only cause the thoughts are nice, but because it seems to get me into a zen relaxed mode when I am trying to come up with them.. I really dont get stressed as much and when I do, if I let it out it helps tremendously, but this is one new little thing that will sure help so much more for future odd moments!! Thank you!

    Kelly - That stress management link is really helpful! Sometimes I struggle to put things in order in my mind.. to have an organized system to keep me going, and when I read articles like this it gets it all in one place and I realize it was never that difficult to begin with.. so thank you! Really really helps!
    2054 days ago
    Katy, I go through the same things too. It's taking a great deal of time to try to make sense of it all. Even with best intentions of planning to avoid unexpected moments, they always appear. Mastering coping skills does help; but, it takes a bit of practice. For some coping skill techniques, I recommend reading the info at the web address below:


    I also recommend reading the book Feeling Good: The New Mood Therapy; which can be found at the link below. You may find it at your local library:


    2054 days ago
    I think it is great that you have the option and choose to use us for venting. Thats what we are all here for! To help each other out. There are always things you dont want to say because you dont want to cause drama but you need to just get it off your chest. Vent away, and just remember that it will get better. Its a silly thing to do, but try to think of 3 positive things when you are angry. Like mine today would be I have a day off for the 4th, I got a yummy breakfast and didn't have to make it, and the sun was out for about 45 minutes earlier (I'm in Oregon, it rains alot). So what are your three positive things?
    2056 days ago
    JOHNMARTINMILES - I am definitely going to do that as soon as I get home!! hahah The day is already turning into a great one.. this blog helps a great deal.. thank you so much for your comment!

    JAOTTO - Thank you! I am sure I will, writing this is just what I needed.. Much better now. :)

    JESSICA - I agree with you.. it WILL get better, and I hope you see that too, whatever you are going through right now will pass.. and in until then.. well, you have plenty of ears here to listen to you whenever you needs us.. just give a shout!

    Thank you all!! emoticon
    2056 days ago
    I understand exactly what you are saying. I don't know why we think we have to be strong and perfect all of the time. I'm struggling right now too, but it is embarrassing to admit it. I know that I have to figure out how to be OK with letting myself be flawed and human and still love myself. I hope you are feeling better about things soon. Great job eating right and taking care of yourself despite the stress! It WILL get better!!
    2056 days ago
    Hang in there.
    2056 days ago
    Sometimes you just have to go outside and yell really loud.

    Make it a great day
    2056 days ago
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