Sunday, July 01, 2012
Today was a good day!! A great day!! I almost cried at what many people may think is silly or take for granted. See, I went in a pool in a bathing suit which I haven't done in years because of being morbidly obese. But, that was the past the old me. I still have some weight to lose but I'm coming around the final turn....I want to lose between 60-70 lbs in order to get to my goal and complete my journey.
Since July 3 2011 I've already lost 138.5 lbs....For me to put on a bathing suit and get in the pool with everyone else and not be the one sitting on the sidelines (because I'm embarrassed or the pool ladder can't hold my weight) meant alot to me and to my kids(it fills my heart with so much happiness when I see that happiness in their eyes that mommy can do things with them now)....I can enjoy my kids and they can enjoy being with their mom like it's supposed to be.I didn't look like a supermodel in my bathing suit but I'm not trying to. I mean, really, who wants to? Of course I want to get to what is a healthy weight FOR ME and not what others think I should be. If looking good means being so thin that I can be blown over by someone whispering in my ear then I'll leave it.
I'm jumping in and enjoying life again and I found me again. This person writing this deserves to be happy & healthy. Losing this weight has given me my life back, my freedom,my moments with my kids back & my kids got their mother back This is why I was brought to tears filling my eyes....IT IS NEVER TOO LATE TO GET YOUR LIFE BACK & DON'T TAKE A SINGLE DAY FOR GRANTED EVEN THE LITTLE THINGS TAKE JOY IN XOXO