Sunday, July 01, 2012
Okay, I'm not married, I have no "significant other", pretty much the closest family members I have are my sister and her kids and husband. So she has stuff she wants to get rid of and THIS is stuff I actually want (sometimes she treats me like a goodwill drop off but this is actually stuff I DO want) so she wants me to go to her house to get it. I suggested 3:00 even though she knows it's almost 90 out and I do not have air (ie: she COULD have suggested dropping it off but didn't) and she says wait until 4:30 cause her husband just left with the older kid and she's got the two little ones and can't do anything with them in the house. So.... you can tend them while we talk over a cup of tea? Sometimes I feel like I mean absolutely nothing to her. I'm the first person she calls when she needs something (except now she can't cause of my neck surgery) but I can't come 1 1/2 "early" because I'll be hanging around the house? She asks me the night before if I'm coming to the play she never told me about... I find out AT the play my niece broke her arm. I would blame this on the stress of the breast cancer but she has ALWAYS been like this.
One of my friends says I take things too personally... what do you think? Is she just a self absorbed person who is always going to marginalize me because that's who she is or does she not "really" like me and only spends time with me because she "has" to or I'm a convenience?'
You guys have Really helped me out here. I think just getting the grrrn out helped my evening because we ended up having a great night together and she and I did end up spending a lot of time together with just us (and occasionally the 3 you but she played by herself) and we did some good talking. I think I was feeling really sorry for myself. And also I realized just after dinner I NEVER TOOK MY MEDS!! One of them is Gapabentin (Neuroton?) which I guess is actually a mood alterator althogh I use it for fibromyalgia and one is valium. Wow. I can't believe I forgot. It's so much easier at work and I do get really depressed and weepy if I don't take them.
Thank you so much everyone!!!