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MY Worse blog I will ever write

Saturday, June 30, 2012

Hi my SparkFriends
This is the hardest blog I will ever write. I am in the hospital and have been since Tuesday,
I refuse to avoid this problem that I have, so I have been diagnosed with cancer of the lungs. terminal, of course,when, they are doing more tests that will give me more info. My youngest son flew in on Tuesday, has been a great help. I thought I was going home yesterday, now I am nor sure. I Will go home!,
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For right now, I felt I needed to say something, rather than avoiding the truth.
Just a point I will say. I am responsible for my life and body. I have done quite well with weight, exercise, healthy food etc. however , that is not and will not make a healthy person. The parts I have denied, ignored and make excuses for was SMOKING. .Need I say more.
A couple friends suggested that i put this out tonight, I will have more. To say

Monty
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LEROYJL 7/15/2014 3:11PM

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CHRIS3874 1/25/2014 10:05PM

    Hang in there. I quit years ago and was diagnosed with tobacco allergies and asthma afterwards. . You will be in my thoughts and prayers.

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MSGRANNYMAE 7/16/2013 11:04PM

    May God be merciful to you and bless you, and cause His face
to shine upon you. Amen. ( Psalms 67:1 )
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LEROYJL 9/18/2012 2:25AM

  MY PRAYERS ARE WITH YOU! I WILL CONTINUE TO PRAY THAT YOU WILL GET BETTER. MY SISTER HAS CANCER AND THROUGH TREATMENT HER CANCER IS IN REMISSION. LET'T PRAY FOR THAT. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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DEE107 8/5/2012 9:15PM

    I am praying my friend hang in

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SHEPIL 8/2/2012 3:03AM

    I am so sorry to hear about this Monty. You have been so supportive to me by leaving me encouraging comments. I will be praying for you and your family.

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LAURIE5658 7/26/2012 4:48PM

    Monty, I am so sorry. My prayers are with you.

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JUNEBUG150 7/26/2012 4:40PM

    Oh Monty, so sorry to hear this news! You are in my thoughts and prayers. I hadn't been on sparkpeople in a long while except to put in my exercise so I just read this. Many hugs and prayers, Melody emoticon emoticon

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BIRDLSLAURIE 7/26/2012 9:11AM

    Monty, I am so sorry to hear about your diagnosis. I hope you can find comfort in knowing there are prayers headed your way.

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SP_COACH_NANCY 7/25/2012 1:51PM

  Oh Monty, my thoughts and prayers are with you!

Nancy

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POOH_BEAR_69 7/21/2012 11:24PM

    I am thinking of you and will be praying for you. You have put so much effort into making healthier choices for yourself. I will continue to pray that something can still be done to help your situation... Have you looked into treatment at different places? My stepfather had breast cancer and received excellent treatment (and a clean bill of health) at the Cancer Treatment Center of America in Philadelphia... They help with the financial aspect, too. Just a thought... He is a smoker, too. I can sympathize knowing what he goes through fighting the addiction to cigarettes. emoticon emoticon

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WINGSDREAMS 7/17/2012 5:11AM

    You are in my thoughts & prayers Monty. You mean so much to us all here on Sparkpeople & you will make it through this.GOD in all his infinite wisdom has a plan for you my friend.

GOD BLESS YOU!,
Kelly :)

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KEKEIKO 7/7/2012 9:46AM

    M'dear friend Monty, I am sadden to hear the news of your diagnosis. May you gain strength knowing that those you have touched in a positive way are sending prayers and thoughts for your family. Gentle hugs, Keke

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DETERMINEDLOSER 7/5/2012 10:52PM

    Monty, I am sorry to hear that you have cancer. You are in my thoughts and prayers!

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HANAHSCLOUDY 7/5/2012 10:25AM

    Ohhh Geez,

Prayers with you and your family Sweetheart.

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BET212 7/4/2012 10:13AM

    Monty~just seeing this and am so sorry this is going on. You truly are an inspiration to many of us here as well as a cheerleader and friend. Praying for a good outcome and healing. emoticon

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HAGIN2010 7/3/2012 4:17PM

    Monty
So sorry to hear this. Will keep both you and your health in my prayers.

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PENNI68 7/3/2012 7:21AM

    Monty - You have been such an inspiration to us all here on SPARK!! I lost my mother to lung cancer at 58 years old and it was hard, but there are so many that are diagnosed and beat it!! I hope that you are one of them!! I am sending many prayers, wishes and hugs your way! May God bless you and your family at this time and I wish for you "peace"!

God Bless!!

Penny
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SLIMLILA 7/2/2012 9:40PM

    OMG, I am so sorry... I'm glad you dropped me a note, cuz i was going along my merry way and didn't even know. I didn't know you smoked.... You made so many incredible changes in your life, I wish quitting had been one of them....I am proud to say my dd quit over a year ago and her dh a year before that. I just don't know what to say...I remember after you posted that you weight had dropped, waiting and praying it was nothing serious...You have given so much of yourself to us all. I am ashamed to say that even with all your encouragement and support I have still not been successful in taking of the weight, but I want you to know that your inspiration has helped me through so many extremely painful times, I wish I could be there to help you through yours.. I'm glad your son got out to be with you, but not for the reason he made the trip! Sorry, I'm crying, you have been such a wonderful friend to me, it hurts! I will add my prayers to all the rest.... you would be so sorely missed, but I think God has certainly made your mission known to you.... what' you've done for so many people around SP has to truly be inspired by HIM... I still can't believe you smoked and never mentioned it in all the times we talked....Wish I could be there for you. If there is anything I could do to ease your suffering, I would do it.. Praying for starters! To God be the Glory, Great Things He Hath Done, and who knows, he may have another big mission for you, either here or in HEaven...stay strong in Him.
Blessings on you...
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MINNEVICKI 7/2/2012 6:14PM

    Monty,

I am so sorry to read of your dilema. Please don't beat yourself up about the smoking. It is a VERY difficult addiction to overcome.

Sometimes it is hard to accept, but this is part of God's plan for you.

Vicki

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WORKINGOUT12 7/2/2012 4:18PM

    I am so sorry to hear about your cancer. I have had several people in my family that had the same thing. My sister and her husband continue to smoke (though they have cut back to one every hour and a half.)
I will be thinking about you and praying for you too.
Am

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YJNANA 7/2/2012 3:31PM

    Monty, now I see what you were preparing to tell us. That is a hard diagnosis but you are a fighter and I know you will do all you can to keep up the fight.
Sending you positive thoughts and Prayers to help you through this.

Hugs
Yvonne

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BABYBARNEY 7/2/2012 12:13PM

    I'm sorry for your diagnosis...Being a fellow sparker...I know what a TRUE support system there is for you from US...a POSITIVE spirit is essential at not only the best of times but also for what we fear is the worst...CANCER is an INSIDIOUS DISEASE...KNOW we are sending you HEALTHY vibes, cheerful wishes & prayer thoughts!!! emoticon

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FREEDOMSTAR 7/2/2012 10:41AM

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Monty- you will get through this. Prayers your way for a speedy recovery.


John

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JOYFULSPIRIT920 7/2/2012 9:57AM

    {hugs} Such a difficult diagnosis to deal with. You are in my thoughts & prayers.

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MOMMA48 7/2/2012 9:00AM

    emoticon My dear loved friend, I wish I lived closer to you, as you know I'd love to be by your side through this difficult time. You are such an inspiration to us and you are always there to show your support and so much more to all, and I wish there was something I could do to show how much your friendship means to me. You are a true blessing and one that God has given to us all here at Sparks--your kind and caring words, your positive outlook which has uplifted so many, and mainly, just by letting your sweet personality shine through--all true treasures and all of which I know that I'll never forget.

I have kept a special message that you sent me awhile ago dealing with friendship and how you never thought you'd meet someone like me through this site--but, my dear Monty, the feeling has always been mutual and you are a true gift that I will treasure today, tomorrow and each new day to come.

That's what friendship is all about and that's what YOU are all about to us! Stay positive and God bless, my dear!

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SUNNYWBL 7/2/2012 12:46AM

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Monty, we believe you can fight this and win! We lift up our prayers to help with your healing!

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MOM4407 7/1/2012 9:30PM

    Monty I am sorry to hear about your cancer.
My thoughts and prayers will be with you and your family as you cope with this.

Becky

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THEADMIRAL 7/1/2012 8:49PM

    Monty, I just saw your blog this evening. emoticon I'm praying for your healing, for your peace and comfort.

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DR1939 7/1/2012 8:40PM

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HIKESHAPPY 7/1/2012 8:12PM

    Monty, I'm so glad you shared with us - we DO care about you, my dear friend! There's not much more than I can really share that others haven't already. I will keep you in my prayers. I do hope that you believe God can work miracles - I've seen Him do just that!

Hugs and prayers, my friend.
Karen

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MERRYMARY42 7/1/2012 7:55PM

    Monty, you have been such a support for me since I started this Spark journey, and you know terminal might mean 15 years down the road, I have been worried about you, and all of us care so much for you, what can I say, I am so sorry, but just never give up, and who knows you just may still get that run in before you make 71. Go for it.

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MAGGIENCALI 7/1/2012 7:21PM

    Monty, I don't know you very well. But I do see you around my other SP friends pages offering encouragements and just being all-around postive. I felt the need to stop by.

I'm so sorry to hear about your prognosis and I will be keeping you in my prayers. emoticon

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CHARHUNT1 7/1/2012 5:21PM

    Prayers for you, Monty! So sorry to hear this. I think that so many people get caught in the same place you've been. My sister had gastric by-pass ~ had to give up smoking in order to have the surgery and started up right after it. It is hard! Beating yourself up does no good. Praise God that you are in good hands and pray for a miracle. God bless! Glad your son is there also.
Char

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JENGRAMMER 7/1/2012 4:19PM

    Monty, Although we've both been on the Classy 70's team for several years we haven't gotten to know eachother very well but I've admired your consistency and determination.

I think those 2 qualities will help you to beat this ugly monster. Along with the many prayers of those who care about you, your own strength will outshine the dismal medical predictions.

See you on the team again soon emoticon emoticon

Jen

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YELLOW09RED 7/1/2012 4:05PM

    Hugs Monty.
Praying for you.

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ANHELIC 7/1/2012 2:32PM

    Monty, I am so sorry to hear about your cancer, but I am grateful you shared it with your friends. I believe Jesus will heal your cancer just as he healed our Pastor's cancer in his stomach 15 years ago and he is still alive and going strong. Your are an awesome friend who has supported your friends, now it is our turn to be there for you. We are all praying for you and your healing.

The faintest whisper of support or encouragement uttered by a Christian in the ears of his fellow believers is heard in heaven by God.

Praying for a complete healing for you Monty. In God's name, Amen.
Joan
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REBECCAMA 7/1/2012 1:50PM

  Sorry Monty. Even non-smokers get lung cancer though. Don't beat yourself up now. Cigarettes are horribly addictive and it is very hard for many people to quit. Why they are still legal is only because they are good business. We legislate "super sized meals" and yet cigarettes we can't get rid of. Many thoughts and prayers to you, but please... this is not your fault.

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BLESSED2BEME 7/1/2012 1:43PM

    Oh Monty,

I don't even know what to say. You have been heavy on my heart lately and now I know why. Since nearly the beginning of my spark journey and I was so broken and lost, you were there encouraging me. So much of the support and special words you wrote on my blogs got me to where I am now. God has used you in so many of our lives.

My husband is still a smoker and I absolutely HATE what it can cause in his body. I struggle with his choice to smoke every day of my life. Sometimes I hate the fact that I love a person who chooses to smoke for this very reason.

Bless you for being open and honest. More than you realize, the rest of this journey for you will make huge differences in other peoples' lives.

Don't give up though! Always, alway have hope and fight and determination to beat this! We never know the miracles God can work in our lives. Bless you son for being there for you too.

Please continue to be open and honest with us. Know that I am here for you just like you have been for me. You will be in my prayers Monty!

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KERLIN26 7/1/2012 1:43PM

  Praying for you!

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ETTEZEUS 7/1/2012 1:13PM

    Oh Monty I am so sorry to hear this! I am praying for you!

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JOYINKY 7/1/2012 12:59PM

    Monty, I'm glad you shared this with us. I know it must have been hard. Glad you have your son there with you and I'll continue to have you in my thoughts and prayers. Miracles do happen. emoticon emoticon

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CAROLYNVIL 7/1/2012 12:50PM

    thinking of you and praying for you.

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PURPLELVR7 7/1/2012 11:12AM

    Monty, my heart goes aches for you and your family.
My prayers are with you, God can and does do miracles.
My dad had lung cancer, originally he was give 6 months - with Gods grace I was able to enyoy his company for 10 years.
God be with you

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MYSTERYROSE74 7/1/2012 11:08AM

    I'm glad you wrote this blog and shared with everyone. I'm also glad your son is there with you. I've been thinking of you every day since you told me, and am praying that you fight and pull through. emoticon emoticon

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HAPPYSOUL91 7/1/2012 10:50AM

    Monty - I am so sorry to read this blog and find out that your time here on the planet is more specific. Saying a prayer for your highest good my friend.

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BOBBIENORTHERN1 7/1/2012 10:37AM

  Monty, I want you healed and whole and full of life and energy and vim and vigor.

Jesus went to the cross for you and bore every sickness and disease and illness and pain for you.

I bind that spirit of evil cancer off of you and cast it into the sea.

I lose the healing power and love and grace of our Lord Jesus over you from the top of your head to the soles of your feet and inside and outside and every organ in your body I call renewed, restored, regenerated, rejuvinated and I establish all these words into this earth and call you healed and whole in the name of Jesus and sealed in the blood of the Lamb Jesus.

Monty you are healed by the stripes of Jesus

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LENHARDT 7/1/2012 10:19AM

    NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO Monty.....NOT YOU. :.......(
I hate cancer. Hate is not even a strong enough word.
I have never met you in person, but you are a wonderful human being. One of a kind.
If I could I would fly down to see you. You have given me so much support and motivation. The sadness I'm feeling right now is indescribable.
I will pray so hard for you and your family.
Please know that I love you and that I am right there with you in my thoughts and in my heart.

~ Your Sparkfriend Sina

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MNNSAIDE 7/1/2012 9:45AM

    Monty - all of your Spark family is with you during this time.

Please know that you can come and lean on us.

You can always e-mail me or others for comfort.

You have been so good at patting everyone on their back now
let us have your back - with pray and support.

Hope someone on Spark has your phone number?
Text?

Love ya Monty

Your friend,

Marcy

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FITAT50 7/1/2012 8:53AM

    Monty, I am so sad to hear this news. I'm saying prayers that God will give you peace and you're able to enjoy and find happiness in every day. I'm so glad your son is able to be with you.

Thank you for being honest with us, smoking is a horrible addiction that many people no matter how bad they want to break it find the addiction is stronger than them. I fortunately was able to quit smoking about 10 years ago but my DH has been struggling to quit for the last couple of years.

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