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This day, this minute

Saturday, June 30, 2012

This day and this minute
I am not interesting,
I am not popular,
I am not the favorite child,
I am not the life of the party
How could I possible know this?
Experience teaches all of us. I know this is not a good thing to write about but this is mine and I'm gunna write about this. I don't want to be number one. I told a friend of mine that I don't have to win at cribbage I just don't want to be so far back I have no chance. This is life. I just don't want to be so far back that I have no chance. Little things get at me. Stuff that probably shouldn't bother me, does. I must have done something wrong. What did I do so that people are mad at me? I have such a hard time if I think someone is mad at me. I cannot comprehend that it is not me. I must be better, do better or make up for it so they will like me more. I do feel better just saying this, so my feelings of unworthiness will go away and I will be fine where I am. So this day and this minute are just a bit better than when I started.
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    Thanks for saying a few things I often think! It's these debilitating mindsets that often send me into an emotional eating frenzy. Then when I read blogs like this it reminds me that the emotions are real but the context is absurd. We can beat this...! Acknowledge, feel, move on... Keep Sparking!
    2053 days ago
    You did a really nice job of expressing your emotions...I appreciate when people journal about things that matter to them. I am sure that you do win at some things...things that matter to others that you take for granted....we can usually find something like that within our family.
    2057 days ago
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