Saturday, June 30, 2012
Wow time is flying! This is my first post in a week because it has been so busy and I admit that I didn't do that great. I am still struggling to find a job. It is so annoying and frustrating when you keep applying and you can't get a job. I miss working so much and it is driving me crazy to be home all the time. Then my feet have been hurting bad again. Damn spurs. I get up in the morning and they hurt and go to bed at night they hurt. I even wake up in the middle of the night feeling like someone is stabbing my feet with a thick sharp object. I tried so many things but it won't get better. Guess I will have to go to a doctor again. And since I am bitching at the moment...because of my feet hurting so bad I couldn't go running. And in my case no cardio means no strenght training because I found way too many excuses to not working out. Glad I am still doing well with tracking my food and I did every day, even though my super slow desktop computer and my internet connection were against me this week as well. But enough of being a cry baby! I need to be more positive again, even though I can't figure out a way how to interpret eating chocolate chip cookies, which I am eating right now
-yeah, I know shame on me!- as something positive. They are yummy though and unfortunately my comfort food. I am still far below my calorie range for the day and I know I could have made better choices, but now I am drifiting into something negative again. UGh!!! I can't find or make up a justification for eating them. I will just put them away and be a good Sparkpeople girl again! Yup, that's what I am going to do. I still have to go clean my place and I will go running today! I need to feel great just like I do when I get home from running! I am sure things will seem way better then again. Maybe I was just lacking some oxygen because I wasn't outside much. Before I forget there are even some good things-more or less haha- that happened this week. First thing is that I might have my laptop working again soon-so keep your fingers crossed
. Oh how I can't wait to be lazy on my couch surfing the internet and this wonderful site with my laptop-after my workout though. The second great thing is that I still talk to that guy almost every day-sometimes for hours. The not so good thing about it is that he has been sending me pictures of him since I hadn't seen him in years. Well, I think I mentioned it before, he is hot, even hotter than he was years ago. Not that I am complaining, but the more pictures I get the more scared I am about meeting him in person again, although I sent him a picture of me, too. I would call it a good fat picture haha. I took it a few months again- at my starting weight- and my face looks kinda skinny on it. I still look like that now, but the picture just made me look perfect. Maybe it is cheating, but I am my worst critique when it comes to my pictures and that is an ok picture of me. I hope one day I will be able to say that my pictures are great because right now I only have three pictures categories: OK, the naked and ugly truth (haha I definitely don't take naked pictures) and screaming out loud "hell no" while pushing the delete button hard as if that would make the picture even faster. Unfortunately, I do have to take like 5000s of hell no-pictures and 1000 of the naked-truth picture to maybe get one ok picture. Maybe thats a reason why I still haven't quit on Sparkpeople yet, because I want to be able to say that out of thousands of pics there is only one that is so bad that I have to delete it. One day I will be at this point and when that day comes I will have it all at the same time -job, hot body, romance and 20cars, 10 mansions and 50 credit cards haha. Ok, I am kidding about the cars, mansions and credit cars. Enough of me and my weird mood and blog. Thanks to all my Sparkfriends who keep motivating me by posting on page. You are all great and I will work hard on not neglecting you that much again!