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Saturday, June 30, 2012

I signed up to do a triathlon that takes place in September. It's "only" a sprint tri meaning that each leg is pretty short. It's a women's only race and it's all about empowering you to do it--helping you succeed.

Right now, though, I'm not feeling very empowered. You see, prior to this week, I haven't been on a bike (that wasn't stationary) in 20 years. I was nervous about going out, but guess's just like riding a bike. He he he. The getting up, balance, wind in my face--all that came right back. Felt great! However, I'm struggling with my daggone pedals.

Allow me to give you a little back story here. My husband is an amazingly supportive husband. He has cheered me on and encouraged me in every step and phase of my healthy lifestyle journey. So when I decided I wanted to do a tri, he decided I needed to have a "good" bike. Quite frankly, I was just looking for something that had pedals, but DH insisted that I needed a good one so he got me one. I really do like it, but it has these clipless clip pedals. I had to get special shoes to go with them.

I am struggling with these pedals. I can easily get my right foot unclipped, but the left? It seems to really like holding on to the pedal. Lol. So when I would have to stop, I'd unclip my right foot, put it down and then clip back in and off I'd go. Great. Except that I couldn't get my right foot clipped back in today so I stopped to try to fix that. BIG MISTAKE. I had thought maybe I'd try clipping the right foot in first and then the left, but when I tried to get my left foot out, I crashed.

This was about a mile into my ride. I really wanted to turn around and go home. But I didn't. I got back on and kept going. Then...another stop. Ugh. I happened again and again I went down. I just wanted to give up. Just walk my bike home, eat the race fee and stick to running.

I was on the side of the road, tears running down my face and I was thinking, "I just can't do this." Ugh, some days I have to admit I'm human and I hate that! It's been happening a lot lately.

Anyway, I'd love to say I had some great epiphany and I've got some wonderful words of wisdom to pass on, but I didn't and I don't. I got back on the bike because, quite frankly, I'm stubborn. I am NOT going to be defeated by something that's less than the size of a deck of cards. Lol.

And of course, that starts me thinking about my weight loss/healthy lifestyle journey. I haven't succeed because I'm special or I found the magic pill. I've succeeded because I'm stubborn.

So I got back on and finished my ride. And when I got home, I unclipped both feet without crashing. My ride wasn't pretty and I can't really classify it as fun. But I did it. So maybe I am feeling empowered.
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    Skinny said she is a bad friend so I guess that means I'm a terrible friend because I never saw a notification of this blog and just saw it today in AUGUST. I've been rooting Mel on and giving her support and now I'm wondering if you're doing it WITH Mel? If so, that is the biggest battle right there - you have each other for support. And you ALWAYS finish what you start Jeni so you know you've got this! You are amazing!
    1894 days ago
    Better late than never... All I can say at this point is OUCH!!

    I'm a bad friend, but you know I love you even though it took me a MONTH yo get to this BLOG! Lol

    1912 days ago
  • DAS92687
    I think that is so great that you signed up for a triathalon. WOW!! So I guess you have three months to figure this out, right? 12 Weeks ... hmm, what other 12 week challenges have you been so successful with ??
    1923 days ago
    Stubborn is good!
    1923 days ago
    What a great role model for us all!!!
    Thanks for sharing and good luck to you!!
    1923 days ago
    The word triathalon scares me. Great effort!
    1932 days ago
    Great Job and Good Luck
    1933 days ago
    Way to go! I love that you fought through and ended up winning in the end!
    1933 days ago
    So proud of you! Stubborn or determined? I think a wonderful combination :-)
    1933 days ago
    So true! If you don't give up and keep trying, you'll find a way to succeed! Your poor knee! But it will heal and you'll get the bike thing figured out. So proud of you for getting back on that bike!
    1934 days ago
    GREAT BLOG!!!! Sorry about your knee, but honey you ROCK because you pushed through and you DID it!!! WAY TO GO! You should be so proud of you, I know I am!

    Btw, skinned knees totally suck, been there done that, with a SOCCER incident, oh yea, me and my clumsiness!
    1934 days ago
    Man that knee looks horrible. Hopefully it doesn't feel as bad as it looks. So I did get the moral to the story here and it is: Joanne you really need to be more STUBBORN. That will be the goal for July to set down the goals and be stubborn about getting to them.

    1934 days ago
  • TEKRU1
    Ouch! Good for you getting back on that bike and not letting it beat you! You'll get this!
    1934 days ago
  • DRPOOH63
    Great blog! I am doing a tri next Saturday and have clipon pedals - which I am not going to use. Am just riding in my running shoes - partly for speed in transition but mostly because those dang pedals scare me. Thanks for being a motivator! I will get out there and try them out.
    1934 days ago
    That’s great that you stuck with it, though.
    1934 days ago
    What a trooper! You go and don't look back. Remember the wind!

    Remember you will succeed!

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    1934 days ago
    Great blog! Thanks for sharing as you move toward your tri -- and you'll go into that fully confident because you will be prepared! I haven't ridden a bike for some time (other than stationary), but having my toes clipped onto a pedal would make me very nervous. I think now you are getting the hang of it. emoticon
    1934 days ago
    I almost think I need to have that first crash to get over the fear of it. And apparently I'm too stubborn to swim... LOL! I *still* haven't bit the bullet and went to the pool. September will be here before we know it!

    I love that your stubborn, I would expect no less from you!! (((HUGS)))
    1934 days ago
  • BET212
    Ouch! That looks painful Jeni! You struggled but pushed through and finished it even when it got tough. Good for you!

    Here's 2 of the online definitions for Stubborn: Firmly resolved or determined; resolute. Characterized by perseverance; persistent.

    I can see all of the above describing you :)

    With some practice I do hope it becomes fun for you. I might have to pull out the used bike we got last year from the garage and try again to learn how to ride it.
    1935 days ago
    Ugh your poor knee it looked like my finger a few weeks ago.. You are so brave with the click on pedals i couldn't do it.... polysporin and bandaid and it will heal quickly!!!!
    1935 days ago
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