Saturday, June 30, 2012
I just logged into Sparkpeople.com for the 1st time in 152 days! Wow! I have still been receiving emails for everything I had subscribed to. I'm not a blog type of person but my last one was last year when my mom died. It's been a struggle since. I still miss my mom but I'm glad she's not suffering anymore. And when you look at it, she's doing better than me! She doesn't have a care in this world because she's not in this world anymore. I had a fall out with my brother, infidelity issues with my now ex-husband, problems with my children, people acting like they are your friend by "supporting you" so you could tell them what's going on with you all the while telling ALL of your business behind your back, starting a divorce, dealing with men trying to become my next man, bitterness, anger, and finally divorce itself. The saying what doesn't kill you makes you stronger is a true statement! If God would not have been there to carry me through all this mess, I would not be able to write about it! Sometimes it didn't feel or even look like He was there, but when I gave Him all of that mess, I began to see His blessings in so many ways manifest in my life. My birthday was yesterday, my children are healthy, my brother and I are talking and supporting each other, my ex-husband and I are parenting, and unfortunately the friend I was lead to believe was supporting me, is miserable, depressed, and struggling worser than I was. (I know worser is not the correct way but that is how to describe her situation!) I'm not happy about her being like that at all but you can't do someone wrong and expect to think something good is gonna come out of it or even expect God to bless you when you are keeping up all that mess! I've been fasting and praying also. God has opened my eyes to not only my situation but to me too. I gotta start taking much better care of myself and not allow people, things, or my situation stress me. God allowed me to get a year older and I'm thankful and grateful for it! When I was on Sparkpeople, I was doing very good. I'm coming back, logging in slowly but I'm coming back!