Saturday, June 30, 2012
Although I had a late last night my son got me up quite early for a Saturday morning. I had things to do; I went to the supermarket, prepared a "farewell" gift for my daughter's best friend who's moving away next week, got some ironing done etc As I was getting lunch ready I found myself thinking, " A nice cold beer would be nice in this heat!"
I stopped in my tracks and realised, I'm never going to rid myself of my desire for alcohol and sugar. I'm always going to crave them at some point or other. It's beyond my control.... However, I can control how I react to those cravings. I wanted to have a beer, but I didn't. Not only because that first beer would have lead to another one or that first scoop of ice cream could have meant the whole tub, but because I refuse to fall victim to my desires.
I am not an unconscious being. I have awareness and am capable of critical thought. Just because I fancy something that doesn't mean I have to have it.
Simple realisations really for most people, but not for myself due to my addictive and impulsive personality.
I am making baby steps towards becoming a more mindful person and although at times it can be hard and I fall off track that doesn't mean I plan on giving up.