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Friday, June 29, 2012

I can't even tell you how many times over the past few weeks I have thought to myself, "Who ARE you, Leah??? Where did this person come from? When did you change so much? How did this even happen?" In a GOOD way! Haha.

So, I thought, "Why not try and figure this out?" I went back and started to read all my old blogs...because I distinctly remember there being a turning point where something permanently changed and I never looked back. It was really fun going back through old blogs. The funniest for me was when I got all emotional and thankful over FOUR comments on a blog. HA! Seems crazy to me now...

Anyway, the progression is very interesting and I thought it would maybe be encouraging for some of show you that, no matter how overwhelming your odds are (whether you have to lose 108 lbs - like me) or you just can't imagine walking more than a mile...THINGS CHANGE, FRIENDS. And sometimes, when you least expect it, they change quickly. You CAN turn your entire life around in a short period of time...I am proof of this. It's not easy...but it is not as difficult as I always thought it would be either. Need proof? OK, let's begin...

FEBRUARY 27, 2012

So, yesterday I was at my "Made To Crave" Bible Study (week 2) and was telling my group that I feel like my issues with food/health have kept me from victory, specifically in the fact that I feel like I can never do anything fun again because I'm afraid of re-breaking my ankle and elbow. It makes me very upset and I was sobbing as I told them, "I can't even run! I've tried and I just can't do it!"

But, I've always wondered if I really physically can't run or if it was just a mental block, completely based on fear. I suspected it was the latter.

Yesterday I took my kids for a walk. About halfway through our 1.5 mile walk, I said to my daughter, "Should I try to jog to that sign? Just to see if I can do it?" I actually jogged!!! My daughter was behind me and she started shouting, "Mommy is jogging!!!!! Oh my gosh!!!" After that short distance, I felt like I wanted to jog again! I ended up jogging, then walking, then jogging, then walking...the entire way and I felt AMAZING!!! No pain. Just sweet, sweet joy.

I am beyond excited about this. And now I want to go again today!

MARCH 13, 2012

Apparently, there's a runners' store in town that will do all the measurements on my feet and even watch me run and figure out the perfect shoe for me.

The real shocker here is this...WHY do I want to spend so much time to do this? WHY do I want to go to this store and have some stranger watch me shake my fatness and have him fit me with what is sure to be a SUPER expensive shoe that I probably can't afford and then WHY do I WANT to do this Couch 2 5K so badly and eventually sign up for a 5K and, later on, who knows what? I HATE running. Right????

It is shocking even to me. I don't know where this desire came from.

MAY 2, 2012 (57 DAYS AGO!!!!)

I've read a LOT of blogs over the past couple of weeks. As you know, I feel specifically drawn to the stories of SparkPeople that have lost 100+ lbs. I began to see a common thread in many of these success stories: running. And not just running when they had walked enough to shed a ton of weight...running when they were STILL out of shape. When they were STILL over 300 lbs, over 250 lbs. Running a 5K non-stop at 230 lbs. It has quite literally blown my mind!

And, I don't know...I just thought, "If these people have done it...then I can do it." I can't keep making excuses.

Sunday morning, I knew I'd have a 6-hour car ride in front of me. At 7am, I went and started over with Couch 2 5K. But, this time, I ran all the running intervals. I cut my personal best mile interval time by 3 whole minutes!!! I was THRILLED! I felt SO GREAT! Yeah, it was a rough run, but not as rough as I thought it would be.

This morning, I woke up at 5:30am to take care of my 4 year old. He went back to sleep and I realized I was wide awake and just ITCHING for the sun to come up, so I could go for another run. I cut my mile interval time by another minute this morning. But that wasn't even my biggest victory today. The victory today was that I was able to breathe! I focused on my running form and, do you know, that made things so much easier?! I wasn't in pain. It was exponentially easier than it was on Sunday.

This is just TWO DAYS of work, folks. And I already feel like it's getting easier. I just can't tell you how amazing I feel. This running thing, once you get the hang of it, is really quite addicting.

If you only knew me two years ago, you'd understand how shocking this is. I am the girl who used to HATE any exercise. I am the rude person that would post on my runner friends' Facebook statuses that running is disgusting. I am the one who would say, "Who cares if I'm overweight? I'm already married and at least I'll die happy (eating delicious things and living life to the full)!"

But I so wasn't living life! And, to have this chance to truly LIVE...well, I refuse to take it for granted. I just can't wait to see what's ahead!!!!

JUNE 28, 2012 (TODAY)

It has only been 57 days since I wrote that. Less than two months, you guys. Tomorrow morning, I will run my longest distance yet - 6.2 miles. And I plan on running the entire thing...with a total of 15-20 minutes of walking interspersed throughout the entire run.

57 days ago, I was thrilled to able to run a 1:30 minute interval. Tomorrow I will run for over an hour.

57 days ago, running in a 5k race was a pipe dream. Something that could only happen "someday". Today, I have run and finished two 5k races.

57 days ago, I thought, "Maybe when I've lost a bunch of weight, I'll be able to do a 5k".

Tomorrow, I will run 10k as a part of my training for a half marathon...which I will run just 15 weeks from now.

In light of these facts, it is understandable that I am constantly looking in the mirror and asking, "Who ARE you?!" Well, I have some ideas:

I am Leah.
I am stronger than I ever imagined I could be.
I am a healed woman - physically, mentally, emotionally.
I am tenacious and empowered.
I am beautiful.
I am not afraid anymore.
I am not giving up.
I am blessed.
I am a runner.

Member Comments About This Blog Post:
MRSWEEKS01 7/5/2012 4:12PM

    This is my day one.... I want to start and don't know how and where to begin. Thank you for being my inspiration and being real in all of this.

You are showing me that I can do it too.... and should just lace up my shoes and get out there (or on the treadmill!).

Thank you - and here's to day one!


(from the PCOS Facebook weight loss page)

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VSQUAREMOM 7/4/2012 2:49PM

    Oh my gosh! It's like you read my mind, with all the whirling thoughts about how I can't, why can't I lose, what do I do?

So, I am headed out to walk to the park and back. It's 3 miles round trip. Part of this, even if it's only a few steps, will be running. Thanks so much for the encouragement!

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JSTHIESS 7/3/2012 11:42PM

    Just what i needed to hear. Thank you:)

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GOATGRANNIE 7/3/2012 8:23PM


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JANISBECK 7/3/2012 6:01PM

  thank you for inspiring me to try again

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ANGRITTER 7/3/2012 5:27PM

    RUN, LEAH, RUN!!!

So happy for you, and hope I can follow in your footsteps. I have an entire person to lose - 50 pounds at a time as a goal. I have only started and I can already tell a difference in the way I walk. I have broken my back, my neck, my shoulder, both ankles (one twice), my wrist, my fingers, etc. I am a hazard to myself.

Just doing my strength training daily and riding my reverse-flywheel recumbent bike uphill is already changing a lot of things about me. I may never be able to run a 5k due to arthritis (RA) and because of the previously broken bones, but I WILL make sure I can run far enough to get away from someone trying to hurt me. That is my goal right now - to get out of the way of accidents and trouble. It's a crazy world, so I set crazy goals.

You are an inspiration and thanks for sharing your story!!

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CLLOVE 7/3/2012 5:05PM

    I am new to the sparkpeople journey and have been inspired by your story. Thanks!

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LUCINDARW 7/3/2012 4:29PM

    Thank you for your blog! The hope and inspiration from you are great!

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NORSEGODDESS34 7/3/2012 4:11PM

    From one Leah to another, you are so inspiring! Thank you for writing about it all and making me realize that I'm the only one holding me back and that I CAN do it. THANKS SO MUCH! emoticon

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TAURUSGIRL3 7/3/2012 12:25PM

  Thanks for sharing! You are such an inspiration to me! I have always wanted to be a runner and you give me hope that I WILL be a runner too!

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    Love that you continue to share your journey! I can't believe what we can accomplish in such a short time frame. Your bravery, your personal empowerment and your ability to share inspire me!

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CONFIDENT16 7/3/2012 10:41AM

    AMAZING!!! Great job and wonderful progress!! You have inspired me to start running. I, my entire life, was the fat girl that hated any sort of movement...even movement to get up to find the television remote! Thanks to you, I'm in the 4th week of the C25K program, and I'm almost in disbelief how much I've accomplished thus far! You helped me find my inner motivation, so thank you so much and keep up your hard work! emoticon emoticon

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TIDESONG 7/3/2012 10:23AM


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LINCOLNMOM123 7/3/2012 10:16AM

    I have had weight problems since I was about 10, and knee problems since about 14. I have been really interested lately in running 5k s because there have been some really fun looking ones lately. I had the same mindset that maybe when I loose some weight and get better in shape it will be easier to run.
Thank you for this post, it was very inspiring, and I think I will keep giving running a shot!

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CATDUG19 7/3/2012 9:54AM

    Beautifully written and so true. We all have the power to do whatever we want if we believe we can. I love following your story so keep it up.

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DOTTY7267 7/3/2012 9:34AM


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KRISTIN501 7/3/2012 7:38AM

    I want you to know that this post made me cry. I am right there with you, I just began running as well, and I have to say, that you are right. After years of telling myself I can't do this, I found out that I truly can.

I will run my first 5k in September in Chicago and I am so excited I cannot stand it!'

Thank your for the courage you gave me to release my inner runner!

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LIZALOT 7/3/2012 3:03AM

    You really are truly amazing!! What inspiration! Thanks so much


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MCFHARPIST 7/3/2012 2:03AM

    You are soooo lucky to have taken this turn at such a young age. I only wish I could have been sparked at your stage in life. Better late than never, but the earlier the better!

Spark On!

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CHANGINGEMMY 7/2/2012 6:31PM

    Amazing! You've accomplished so much already. I've always wanted to be a runner but have always thought I couldn't, you've proven you can!! Thanks for the inspiration to go at it.

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BLESSED2BEME 7/2/2012 4:13PM

    Oh my gosh! Such inspiration. I started at 200 lbs. I gained a ton of weight after I retired from the Air Force. I swore I'd never run again (that was 8 years ago). Now I am running for me - not anyone else. I've lost 15 lbs but still have a long way to go to be 'healthy'. I'm doing it right though...slow and steady. I can't run as far and fast as you but I'm getting there.

Thanks for the encouragement through your blog and journey!

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CRZYMOM04 7/2/2012 2:27PM

    You are so awsome thanks for sharing

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MYVOYAGE 7/2/2012 1:00PM

    Thank you for sharing! Very inspiring...for those of us who struggle with the motivation to excercise...this blog is inspiring! Thank you!

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BERI03 7/2/2012 11:28AM

    You are amazing! emoticon

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KINKONE 7/2/2012 9:27AM

    Great post. I needed to read this; now I'm pumped to stay the course! Thanks!

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DEB_LEA 7/2/2012 8:30AM

    Thanks for sharing your story & good luck with the running!


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OLIVIANIGHT 7/2/2012 6:25AM

    Wow, I didn't realise it had been such a short time. I swear every time I read your blog I just want to get up and go run round the block, it's that motivating.

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SHINYZALATA 7/2/2012 5:57AM

    This is really amazing and inspiring :D emoticon

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THEIS58 7/2/2012 4:45AM


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SHARPISTOL 7/2/2012 1:48AM

    GREAT BLOG! Thank you for sharing! And continued success!


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TECHSUN 7/2/2012 12:52AM

    You'll male that 5k.

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ANEWME423 7/2/2012 12:15AM

    emoticon emoticon for your blog. I just restarted C25K myself and your blog really helped to stoke my motivation. You rock!

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PLATAS0827 7/1/2012 11:45PM

    Truly Amazing.. Thank you for sharing..

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IBECCA 7/1/2012 11:44PM


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COLLIMA 7/1/2012 11:32PM


You are truly inspirational! I have always daydreamed about being a runner myself, but I just cannot bring myself to actually do it....

I do use the treadmill because it keeps me on track in terms of time and consistency (I just can't lollygag on the treadmill once I set the pace!), but still cannot actually do anything resembling running!


However, I do walk really fast! Enough to work up a sweat!

I sure do admire you, though! Keep it up! emoticon

Comment edited on: 7/1/2012 11:33:22 PM

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GBAUM0432 7/1/2012 10:55PM

  Great post

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BOOKWERME 7/1/2012 10:44PM

    emoticon Wishing you continued success in your transformation!!!

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PLYNSN316 7/1/2012 10:40PM

    So proud of you!!!!!!!! You are an inspiration and an amazing woman!!! BE PROUD! BE STRONG! BE WONDERFUL YOU!!!! emoticon

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    I think this is the most inspiring thing I've ever read! We are all truely blessed to be able to read your journey! Thank you for sharing! I pray you're blessed beyond measure in your goals to come! emoticon emoticon

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BRENNI71 7/1/2012 9:35PM

  Thank you Leah! Sooo Inspiring!!! Yay, Leah.... I know something you left out... You are an Athlete, inspiring others to be athletes too!!! emoticon

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LISA_FRAME 7/1/2012 9:14PM

  good post

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    What an awesome and inspiring blog emoticon

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TKJUDGE 7/1/2012 7:52PM

    Reading this blog makes me ready to start running!
I got the app on my phone just haven't used it yet!!

Thank you for sharing your's an amazing one so far!!

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JSTETSER 7/1/2012 7:25PM

    Praise God for what HE is doing in your life!!

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RABBITART 7/1/2012 7:17PM

    Keep the good work!

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CAROL494 7/1/2012 7:01PM

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    what an inspiring post....

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DSING1770 7/1/2012 5:37PM

    Such determination!! Way to go!!

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    Like you, I hope my attitude change is permanent. Everyday that I do it, move more, eat less, make good choices, is a GOOD day, and one day closer to doing it forever! I am never going to say never (as in I'll never weigh as much as I used to), but I'm going to do my darnedest every single day to make sure it doesn't happen.

You have made amazing changes in the last months--I love to read of your progress and your determination. Keep up the good work! You truly ARE beautiful in every way!

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