Not a great first month, but not giving up!
Thursday, June 28, 2012
Things in my world have been turned crazy once again. I am proud there is no changes in my weight as far as gain but not proud of myself for letting things get to me and shut me down the way they have the last couple of weeks. I will not let it hinder my forward progress any longer though.
I found out that the business I have worked at for the last 18 years is selling.
As a business we have been through a lot the last several years. I work for a family business. Our owner died in 2004 and left the business to his wife and children. His wife past away the first of the year and the children have decided they don't want it anymore. It has been heartbreaking for me. I am our manager and have put my heart an soul into this company as if it were my own. I am not sure what my future will hold or where. I know I have options but gonna have to do some serious thinking on what to do.
On my own personal front I have been trying to refinance my home and finalize the rest of the pieces of my divorce of a couple of years ago and this is complicating things.
My daughters have been having some struggles and I find myself feeling helpless on all fronts right now to help anyone.
I have found myself the last couple of weeks in somewhat of a funk and definitely depressed and not caring about things I want for myself.
I am done. I will not wallow in self pity any longer. Today is a new day. I will pull myself up from my bootstraps and get myself back together. I got myself some very needed rest last night and today and have turned things over to God! I can only do so much and I know when I am powerless and over what!
I do have power over the things I can do for me though and that is what I am going to pour my focus on. I have to get myself healthy so I can have a future! So prayers please. I am going to focus one minute at a time, one meal at a time, one workout at a time and put my best foot forward to a healthy new future!