I am having a hard time believing in the weightloss process. I see tons of successful people, I tell myself to be like them, and yet there is still something in the back of my mind that tells me I'm going to fail. I also hear that I'm not meant to be thin, fattening foods are so tasty, why give them up?, etc. It's frustrating to me that I do good things and then binge or be lazy. I don't know how to not be hard on myself. I wish I can jump into the brain of a thin person and learn their mannerisms and their thought patterns around food. I feel like my brain and body are so out of synch in regards to food.

The other day I was attentively listening to someone telling me about what it was like to do and get off of drugs. I couldn't help but realize that I could substitute the word food for every drug name he listed and applied it to me. At the same time, I know I need food to live. I also know that I get joy from cooking and creating dishes. I'm confused....