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My Loser Adventure is About to Begin....


Thursday, June 28, 2012

Yup it is almost that time when my Biggest Loser adventure will begin this July. If you recall last Dec/Jan I entered a video contest for a chance to be 1 of 10 winners to win 4 weeks at the Biggest Loser Resort to have my own BL experience and get a kick-start on this journey. Although my journey and struggles started way before this contest. Thanks to all of those FB family and friends and some SP friends who supported me and voted for me I won . I will have four weeks at the resort to focus on me and learn all I can so that I can come back home and continue implementing what I learn into my daily life for the rest of my life. I am excited and scared at the same time.

I am afraid to let myself down and discovered that I am a wimp and do not have what it takes and I will forever be stuck in this body. Hiding under these pounds. At the same time it would be great to realize that underneath all of this lives a warrior ready to kick butt. That the anger and pain inside of me bursts out in rage and kicks ass every day.

After motherhood this is the most scary thing I have ever done, completely out of my comfort zone. I am always that girl that feels she never fits in and at times feels like she's trying too hard so it is easier to exclude myself from the world. So coming to a place where I will be surrounded by nothing familiar and strangers is a bit intimidating.

I also worry about my kids. Not seeing them for a month, hoping they are well taken care off, the truth is no one will take care of your children like you would. Actually my mom would have but as some of you may know I lost my mom last year to cancer.

I wonder if my mom would have been so happy for me right now. I believe she would have been. She wanted me to get healthy and find the help I needed to lose weight, even offered to pay for it. I was never able to please her because I lost her TOO FAST. I always thought that she would make it. She was one of the strongest woman I have ever known but cancer kicked her ass and killed her. Now I would like to kick obesity's ass since I cannot kick cancer's ass.

This is so hard, losing my mom has by far been the hardest thing I have ever gone through in my life. I try to be grateful that I am still here and I have my kids but the anger inside of me and the pain some days is just too much. If it was up to me I wouldn't even leave my house but I fight those feelings every day for my kids. I hate leaving them for a whole month but it is to get help with the hopes of getting healthy to be the mom they need that I am doing this.

Please keep me in your prayers for safe travels for super natural daily physical and emotional strength to kick butt during my wokouts and daily hikes.

I can receive mail while at the resort so if anyone wants to drop me a quick hello/encouragement note you can. I'll be there for four weeks starting July 1st.
You can write to me at:

The Biggest Loser Resort
Attn: Yesenia Ortiz
327 Latigo Canyon Road
Malibu, CA 90265

Your daily prayers are welcomed and appreciated.

Be Blessed,

Yesi

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JENJENN7 7/3/2012 4:33PM

    emoticon emoticon You can so do this!



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TEXASFILLY 6/30/2012 11:52PM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon This is so great! I'm so thrilled for you. Remember: Your eyes on the prize at all times. *hugs* All the best, BB~ emoticon emoticon emoticon

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YESI1211 6/28/2012 8:36PM

    Thank you all for taking the time to ready my blog and leaving me a comment. It means a lot to have your support.

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KATD13 6/28/2012 8:09PM

    Wow, just days away! That is so exciting!

Sometimes new situations can cause anxiety & make you feel like you don't fit in. I'm sure everyone going to the BL Resort is feeling the same way. Remember, you're all in this together. But, I think you are going to fit in, right away. I also think that you will make some lifelong friends and have amazing memories from this adventure.

This is going to start a whole new chapter in your life. You will attain your weight loss goals. You'll be so much more healthy & happy. Your kids will be so proud of your accomplishments. And you are setting such a great example for them.
It will be hard to be away from them & your going to miss them tons. But keep focused on your goals, it's not just for you, but for your whole family.

I understand about the loss of your mother. Both my mom & dad are gone and I think about them everyday. Sometimes the silliest things will make me think of them, & cry. All you can do now, is to live your life the very best way you can. You know she would be behind you 100%, cheering you on, all the way.

Yesi, you CAN DO THIS! It may be the hardest thing you have ever done, but you can do this.

Girl, no more doubts, go kick butt!

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BABY_GIRL69 6/28/2012 4:47PM

    Definitely praying that you are successful! I lost my mom too, she just let go & let God have His way. That wasn't they way I was choosing for her though. I know you miss her with all your heart cause some times I miss mine too. But I know she isn't in pain or anxious. One day, your heart will be troubled no more. This is all apart of grieving how long it takes? Well each one of us is different so take the time you need.

God bless,

Dee

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ANGIEINTRAINING 6/28/2012 3:58PM

    Awesome for you! Stay strong and focused. Good luck!

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