I have decided, since it's close to my birthday, to take another look at my long term goals and in doing so I have realized a few things. Let me preface this by saying I am 5 foot 6 with a sturdy frame and hips that could kill ya and most of all I sure as hell ain't gettin any younger.

with that said

My goal weight has been, for several years, 135lbs
135 is what I weighed AGES ago when I was 13-15 dancing 6 days a week in a dance troupe, doing manual labor in my parent's yard trying to make it pretty.
I am now a decade older (soon to be more than a dacade... ugh) and I have come to terms now with the fact that I will most likely NEVER be 135lbs again, unless I get horrendously ill or quit my job and do nothing but workout and plan my meals. Turns out, I have a life beyond the gym! And right now it's a life I quite enjoy.

I have changed my goal weight to 145lbs because it's more realistic and I'm still going to look AMAZING when I lose the 11lbs it will take to get there and you know if I happen to dip below it and go to, say, 140. kudos to me!

Something else I've decided is that the nutrition info on the food tracker is a bit wacky. if I consistently ate (even at the low end) what the tracker sets up for me I'd never lose, matter of fact I DIDN'T! I religiously followed the tracker for several months and ate great and sometimes had to WORK to get up to the minimum calorie count for the day. I decided that was a dumb game and set the nutrition goals more to my liking and ya know what? I LOST WEIGHT AGAIN.

So here we go again, once more into the fray, maybe this time it'll friggin work!
Different goals and a different outlook on many things.
One of the things I've really taken a shine to, is this saying...


When I eat well (real food not chemicals!) I feel good and healthy
When I workout regularly I feel good and strong and beautiful

So now my main goal is to be healthy, screw being super skinny, it's just not going to happen for a lot of us, make your peace with that and move on, but healthy? we can all be that and those pounds you shed from getting healthy, that's just the pretend icing on the metaphorical cake, my friends.

We can totally have our metaphorical cake and eat it too