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I suppose the Spotlight warrents a new blog!

Monday, April 02, 2007

I must say, I didn't even realize this even existed to have Sparkpages spotlighted, but it's a really great feeling!

I have recently with the wonderful encouragement of my husband began to count calories again. If it enters my mouth, I immediately (or as soon as possible) log it into SparkPeople. This is the ONLY thing that has ever worked for me. I'm now 138.8 pounds. I'm so proud of myself.

Last month we went to Durham, NC to visit Dave's old college roommate. Our good friends went with us, and I was faced with my weight. I had gotten down to 139, but had put back on 3lbs because of the holidays and my BIL's wedding. See, my good friend is a size two, a dancer, and incredibly beautiful. My size ten frame looks huge compared to her. I'm having to learn, little by little, that I am beautiful because I have curves, and because I am me. I'll never be a size two. Heck, my bare bones aren't a size two!

To be honest, I haven't reached that point where I'm happy with me yet. I'm scared I may never find that, but I have a husband that loves me unconditionally. That helps a lot. Still, I'm afraid even when I reach my final goal of 125, I'll still feel large. I know it's my body image I need to change, not my weight. It can't hurt to change both right? :)

Thank you everyone for your wonderful words of encouragement! SparkPeople really is amazing.

We CAN do this!
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HTG_ZOO 4/2/2007 11:43PM

    Attitude is so important. It's great that you're taking steps to feel more comfortable in your own skin. It will take time, but you can do it, with help from your wonderful husband and the support offered here, you can do it.

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GONANA 4/2/2007 11:54AM

    I know what you mean, Jen, about body image. I weighed 125 lbs when I was 18 and still thought I was huge. Little did I know that I WAS small! It went up from there until I reached 232 a couple of years ago. Now at 188 I feel huge still, but WAY better than I did at my highest weight. Since I will never go back there, it can only get better from here. The past is the past. So good to see you again! ~Nancy

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