Wednesday, June 27, 2012
Tonight my favorite skillet from the new cookware set slid out of the dish drainer. I don't know it caught on, but it got a scratch in the nonstick. It's at the top so it won't affect performance, but I was heartbroken. So I'm trying to figure out why I'm so hung up on keeping it perfect looking? Maybe because my father said that if we didn't keep it looking like it just came out of the package we were total screw-ups Lord knows, the cookware I've seen Bobby use on TV does NOT look brand-new. It looks like it's done yeoman service. I've got to get over my hang up about things looking perfect.
Meantime, I'm gearing up for my holiday weekend. By the end of the workday this Friday we'll be expected to have 1,386 items cleared off of the current worklist. When I left tonight I was just over 1,500. I'll probably be close to where we're expected to be NEXT Friday when I leave for my five-day weekend. My boss has told me several times that when we get time off we're expected to double down and have the same amount accomplished, even if we're out sick for two weeks. And Arthur and I discussed how I keep feeling that I need to be constantly doing, giving, never stopping. So that by the time I get home there's no energy left for me (which my home looks is starting to look trashy again).
I finally figured out how to text today! I know that sounds weird, but my texts weren't going and I couldn't figure why. Turns out, you're supposed to use the area code even in your area, and I didn't know that. And today I took my first photo with my camera. So now I've joined the 21st Century!
Right now I'm watching What Not To Wear. Lord, I wish Stacy and Clinton could help me. I'm sick of feeling so ugly and frumpy. But at my size I can't shake the feeling that at 400 lbs. I'm not going to look any better anyway.
I'm so tired. I'm ready for the five days off.