Day 7 - feeling more in control
Wednesday, June 27, 2012
Last night I ran newbie practice and I felt like I was more energized and engaged than I had been in a long time. I was actively watching and giving feedback to them as they skated. Then we had a scrimmage with one of our crosstown rival's hometeams. I was SO impressed with our performance. I was unfortunately crashing and was hot, tired, hungry, and cranky. I started to slack pretty hard at the end. My main goal in derby is to try harder. I find myself hanging back and purposefully half-assing it at almost every practice. So my goal is to not just attend practice but to actually give it 100% effort. Because even though I was exhausted last night I feel like I have TONS more energy today. Tonight will be a bit of a challenge because tonight is the higher level practice where all my least favorite people will be... I haven't been to a Wednesday practice in almost a month since the drama started. But I will go no matter how I feel becuase derby is MY happy place and I won't let those bitches take that away from me.
As far as eating goes, I have been fastidiously tracking all my foods. I did not get enough calories yesterday becuase I didn't get home until 10:30 and I wasn't interested in eating that late at night (but I WAS hungry). I think I need to keep protein powder around for those situations, that probably would have helped with my fatigue last night as well. I also think I need to focus on drinking more water, especially with all the heat and sweating.
Personal Triumph: I jumped on the scale this morning and saw that i'm back down to 175, I had gotten up to 180 and that's what motivated me to really get back on track. So now I'm back to where I was hovering when I gave up on everything in April. So now it's time to make some real progress!