Wednesday, June 27, 2012
Hello! 13 months ago I started my weight loss journey. In the past 13 months, I've lost almost 50 pounds, and have gained a lot of happiness and confidence. Starting April of this year, though, I started slipping. I "didn't have time to work out" with graduating, wedding planning, moving into a new apartment, and looking for a full time job while working a part time job. Since April, I've gained back 5 pounds.
I get into these moods where I feel like I'm totally back into it and tomorrow I'm going to be PERFECT....workout 45 min, eat 1200-1500 calories, drink lots of water, etc. And everyday "tomorrow" comes and I don't track my calories, I eat unhealthy food, and I claim I don't have time yet.
I tell myself that once things "settle down" and I settle into another full time job (the one I was hired for didn't work out...it was too emotionally draining and was causing my blood pressure to increase...plus I was intentionally punched in the face by one of the kids...but anyway...) I'll be able to plan my meals better, keep healthier foods in the apartment, and everything will go back to how it used to.
My battery on my food scale died and it took me 2 months to buy a new battery for it. I haven't been weighing or measuring. I haven't been tracking. I haven't been eating healthy at all. Its a miracle I haven't gained more than 5 pounds...I credit that to 1 year of tracking and measuring and retraining my stomach and brain to not over indulge. Even though I knew I was over indulging, it wasn't to the scale that it used to be over a year ago.
I've decided that I'm starting over. Not starting over as if I never lost weight in the first place. I'm starting my tracker over and using the skills I've gained over the past year to help me be successful. I'm going to use some of the elements I used last year when I was first starting out, but I'm not going to use "starting over" as an excuse to not give it my all.
For example, when I first started out last year, I started slowly...went to the gym 1X/week, then 2X/week, then 3X/week and so on. This allowed me to slowly incorporate working out into my schedule, as well as getting used to doing it. After about 6 weeks, I LOVED working out, and actually laid in bed at night, excited to go to the gym the next morning. I NEVER felt like that before.
Also, I started tracking every day, but I wasn't trying to meet my 1200 calorie goal until a few weeks in. I did this in order to raise my awareness for a bit about how much I was really putting into my body...all the calories, fat, sodium, etc. Actually seeing those numbers so high day after day really opened my eyes to what I was eating. It allowed me to see how I can make better choices throughout the day and how it affected those numbers at the end of the day. Within a few weeks I was eating healthy for ALL my meals and staying within my calorie range. That summer I lost 30 pounds (the majority of the weight I've lost) in 3 months. It took me 10 months to lose another 18 pounds.
So here I am, 41.5 pounds lighter than a year ago today, starting over. I have my bridal shower in 2 weeks, and a dress that could fit a little looser. I am still a size 10 even though I've gained a few pounds. My wedding dress is a size 12, so I don't have to worry about fitting into that. I am hoping to be down to a size 8 by the time I have to get fitted for my wedding. I would say that would be about 15-20 more pounds by the end of August. I know I can do it. I just have to reignite that spark, and learn to "just do it" like I was. Yesterday I almost met my calorie goal, but when I got home from work at 11, I binged a little bit on some extra Hershey's nuggets with almonds (I only allowed for 1 in my calorie allowance, but I ended up eating 6...), a PB&J, and a Velveeta shells and cheese cup. I was at 2100 for the day. I drank all my water yesterday, though!!
So, here I am, "starting over". I'm going to try really hard to meet my calories (possibly on the high end of 1400 to ease myself into it) and MAYBE go to the gym. I still haven't decided yet. But I've drank half of my water goal for today, so I've gotten that far!!