Wednesday, June 27, 2012
Today got me thinking how I have changed over the years. I was always heavy from the time I was a little girl.. Yet, even at my heaviest weight 295lbs I was always in a good mood. Life was good...I always felt beautiful inside and out. Things didnt change much on a daily basis...I kinda did the same things over and over. Similar to the Merry Go Round.....it never really got you anywhere but, it was still fun to ride.
Now a days I have advanced from the Merry Go Round to the Rollercoaster. I always loved the rollercoasters, they gave off many feelings all at once... a sense of anticipation, anxeity, fear all rolled into one. Now .I'm at the top of the rollarcoaster and looking down...and without warning..Yaoooooooooo the coaster is plumeting downhil fast.
But, where I once was happy just going round and round, I now find myself in a place where too much is changing too fast and I want off the ride.
I dont want the eliment of surprise to keep rearing his ugly head...I want the predictability that comes with the same dialy chores.