Rollercoaster of Frustration: It Will Get Better
Tuesday, June 26, 2012
I almost wish I had enough energy to eloquently express in words the frustrated, exhausted sigh I gave when I opened this blank blog post.
I'm up a whole ten pounds since my last post. The causes are the usual suspects -- I didn't make time to work out and my portion sizes were far too large. Thankfully I didn't give in to the sweets or fat-laden comfort foods -- I've successfully removed most of those things from my internal definition of "food." I don't drink anything with sugar in it unless it's the natural sugars in juice (and even then I'm careful), but second and third helpings of whole grain spaghetti and lean chicken over brown rice are still extra calories that I wasn't burning. Add that to spending 99% of my waking time sitting or lying down and you have a recipe for weight gain. I'm not proud.
I could list all the reasons why I haven't been working out -- a family member was in a serious motorcycle accident and work has been insane, requiring ridiculous overtime hours -- but those things are things that will always come up in life. I can't base my healthy lifestyle on perfectly ideal conditions, because life isn't perfectly ideal. I won't sit here and tell you that I couldn't find the time, because the truth is that I didn't MAKE time.
The good news is that I'm not discouraged to the point of giving up. Sure, it's disheartening to see all my hard work amount to nothing, but I'm a lot closer to a healthy lifestyle than I was when I started Spark People a year ago. I need only to increase my activity levels and reduce my portion sizes. That's certainly doable and I'm confident that I can turn this around in a healthy, reasonable amount of time. It's just frustrating to see my hard work undone in just a few months.
Today I ate healthy foods and worked out. I didn't push myself beyond my limits, but I did a fair amount of cardio (423 calories in 40 minutes) and a getting-back-into-things session with the weight machine for about half an hour. I know I'm going to feel it tomorrow, but not so much that I won't be able to spend some time on the treadmill. Life is full of successes and set backs -- it's how we deal with them that makes the difference.