Tuesday, June 26, 2012
I've done alot of thinking and soul searching over the last few days, and I've come to realize I have spent entirely too much of my time, the better part of my 32 years basing my own self worth on the opinion of someone else. Someone I can never make happy, nor should I have to. I don't write this here for sympathy or even attention, but for myself, to mark this day, right here and now, on a Tuesday night in the middle of June as the day I am taking my own life back from somewhere it never should have been left. This is the end of the road for any idea that we could ever be in each others lives. I have clung on to a fantasy for too long, with a person who doesnt even exist. Today, I am officially an orphan. Today, I am in control of my own destiny. I am in control of my own happiness, and my own self love, which means no one can ever try to rob me of it again. So happy "re-birth day" to me.