Tuesday, June 26, 2012
If some toxic people I'll never get rid of, as they're part of my life as family, or colleagues, I am managing to give a support to myself as I am sometimes obliged to see them , even if I do not like being with them.
I am trying to draw a SWOT diagram of my life - stengths , weaknesses, opportunities, threaths - so that other people's attitudes won't bother me anymore....but this time it was a BIG challenge!!!!
Last night we went out for supper with a couple and they're family , she's the thinnest person in the world and lives on veggies.
I used to envy her as she's skinny and her hubby keeps on praising her body,her beauty and so on,right when I'm there,and that's overall when we're having meals together.
This brought me to feel terribly fat, ugly and desperate. Sometimes the hubby even told me off about my 'fat handles' on my back - sorry they're now gone through gym exercise!!!!
So how do you think I could feel????
An 'Ugly duckling', just to give you an idea....but last night it was different.
I calmly noticed her strong will.
She avoided pizza and pasta like hell, sat close to salad plates and ate maybe ten helpings of salad,,,,drank only water and avoided sweets altogether.
Good move! But, no nourishment at all.
The wiser me went to gym during the day, had three different classes and ate both pasta and pizza, in small quantities, drank a glass of wine or two - c'mon we're in the Land of Wine- and felt happy having some ice cream as a dessert.
Now I am keeping my normal weight, my normal curves and I'm not going to give up eating....
Who wants to starve all life long???
PS The wine was a roseč and it was totally delicious....It's ok if you have only a pair of glasses!!!!