Tuesday, June 26, 2012
I have a confession. I am a lurker. I have no problem logging in and reading about the successes and blogs of other Sparkies, but when it comes to posting about myself I've got nada.
Actually I have gone through some major changes in my life since my last blog post.
* I finally pulled the plug on my 7+ year relationship, it had long turned into a situation of living together like roommates, but it was dragging me down emotionally and financially. I do not think I have ever been so angry and mentally/physically exhausted in my life than I had the last few years dealing with my ex. I tried every which way to Sunday to make things work and when it came down to it I choose giving myself the chance to be the happy person I used to be.
* I finished another semester of school- YAY!! This is quite the feat when working fulltime and attending school fulltime.
* I am in the process of house hunting.
* I have put myself back into the dating field.
While all of these things have been positive changes in my life, I have definitely been missing key changes that will lead me to true happiness- losing this weight and finally feeling comfortable and healthy. I have been talkin the talk but hadn't made the effort to walk the walk until Sunday. One of my best GFs asked me to go hiking, I surprised myself by committing even though I was feeling like crapola got out of bed and was at her house by 7:15 on Sunday, we hiked at least 2 miles before I threw in the towel and got home just in time for a 5 hour nap.
I am so grateful to my friend for encouraging me to start looking for the old me that is buried beneath this fat girl!! I am ready to dig her out!!