Monday, June 25, 2012
Its been a while since ive been really active on SP. I started 1/13/11. I lost 35 lbs, and now ive gained them all back since then. I have always been able to start a healthy eating plan, just never stick to it past 3 months or so. But since falling off, I have found I cannot start for the LIFE of me. I dont know why, and I dont know whats going on with me. I am so depressed about my weight. I look at myself and dont recognize who ive become, mind you i have ALWAYS been overweight, however, not as big as I am now. I cant do many things that are so small to others (tying shoes, ride a bike, etc) due to my weight or fears associated with my weight. I have never before thought of the possibility of surgery, until lately ( last 2 weeks). I used to think I am too young, I know what to do to lose the weight. I used to also say, if I ever got diagnosed with diabetes that would be my wake up call, well I go diagnosed prediabetic. I was so depressed by this, however, I have not been able to scare myself straight. I know what I need to do, I have the foundation, however, its the organization of it all and the ACTION of it, that I do not have. I just keep thinking....when? when is it going to happen? when am I going to lose the weight? I just need help. I hope I can slowly start doing this again. I am starting with tracking. This is the hardest on the weekends :( I overeat every weekend. I hope this is the time.