Monday, June 25, 2012
I don't usually whine, but today is the day. I am having a hard time dealing with the stress of not knowing about our cabin in the fire. I am in a state of free floating anxiety and have continued to make emotional eating decisions. I am at the top of my 5 pound "weight zone" and not happy about how I am handling this.
We don't have any news about when we might get back in to see the cabin. In fact the south west part of the fire where we are located is in danger again. We are right up against forest land where there iare a lot of beetle kill trees which catch fire easily and the fire is making a "run" down the mountain toward our part of the fire area again.
It is just watch and wait and I don't do that very well. I feel restless and anxious. I'm not exercising outside because it's been over 100 degrees for 3 or 4 days straight. I didn't go to the gym over the weekend out of lethargy. I did bike outside early this morning and did my gym strength training today.
What I have been doing is eating large portions of food and snacking between meals. I have had a few poor food choices but I haven't binged. However, as you would expect I am hovering at the top of my allowed weight fluctuation and am fearful of going up the scale.
I will stay within my calorie range today and call someone to talk with when I get stressed. I will try to get out of the house and stop listening for news on TV and the computer. I need to break my cycle of anxiety and try to find some things to do to get my mind of the cabin.
I will stop whining and dining!