Sunday, June 24, 2012
This week has not been a good week at all. It started out good when I got weighed for my challenges I'm involved in with the LEMON Team and with the STOP Team. I had a loss on both teams and was even the "biggest loser" on the Lemon Team. Well, what went wrong?? Emotional, spur of the moment eating that led to more eating.
Thursday my son became quite ill with the bronchitis that he caught from me. He has severe asthma and was not doing well so we made a trip to the doctor for him and on the way home, I stopped and we got sub sandwiches and cookies. Earlier in the day, I had gotten some ice cream which I haven't done in the last year. So you can imagine, what Thursday night was like. Friday I got right back on my program but then when I was getting out of the car on a hill, my car door swung shut, hitting my R leg taking a huge chunk out of it that would not stop bleeding. I'm on coumadin and since it was bleeding so profusely, I went to the ER where I spent six hours just to get seven (7) stitches. Well, by now it's almost 8 o'clock so I stopped and picked up two pizzas for all of us to eat. You can imagine the rest of the story for Friday night and on into Saturday.
I had gotten down to 247 last week but this morning I was back up to 254.3....a gain of 7.3 pounds in less than a week. I'm so disgusted with myself because I've opened up a "can of worms" so to speak because now I'm craving things that I love but avoided this past year because I didn't feel like I could trust myself with the food. And I was right. How could I do this to myself after working so hard to lose 100 pounds.
It has taught me a huge lesson.....that I cannot have these foods around when I'm upset about something or feeling low. I've avoided them in the past or had small portions, but wasn't able to this time. So far today, I've done o.k. but my sweet tooth is begging for something and I don't know how the rest of the day will pan out.
I've tried to encourage others on my journey but seem powerless to help myself this week.